just simply vann

im leaving on a jet plane...

2008-11-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

people, i am happy and sad to say that i have MOVED!

since i cant move all my old posts to the new blog, i shall leave this here. i still wanna read my older posts from time to time. heh.

time and tide waits for no man.

2008-10-30T20:36:00.007+08:00

okay as promised, i shall add some pictures from kusu. these were what i have. AM STILL WAITING FOR THE REST. *ahem* HAHA.

anyways school seems to pass by in a blur. and like that, the second week of school is coming to an end. time flies doesn't it? its like i thought i just entered poly year 1.1 and right now, im in year 2.2. im only a few more months away from my internship that is supposedly 8 months for AMS students instead of the usual 6 months and before you know it, we would all be wearing the graduation robes, receiving our diplomas and throwing our hats in the air. oh my gosh. i hate thinking about the future even though i know its about high time that i do. i have no idea what came over me and im beginning to feel nostalgic and think back of the old times.

will things be different in the future? will we all still keep in touch as we promised each other that we would? can we all survive the cruel world and face reality? will we all make it big someday and make our mark? will we still be together in the future? and will there still be a place for me in his life and his in mine?

alot of thoughts right now in my mind. i know that these are just fears of mine. fears of change. that things i cant control. but all i know is to treasure what i have now and to look forward and move on positively. i know i said last time that im looking forward to graduating, but now, im thinking otherwise. i wish time could slow down even more. sigh.

SIGH

2008-10-28T21:19:00.002+08:00

do you know what this face says?

"NO! YOU CANT MAKE ME DO HOMEWORK AND PROJECTS AND ASSIGNMENTS AND BLAH BLAH BLAH!"

i don't wanna do homework. sniff. i miss the holidays. :(

The QUIZ.

2008-10-27T21:03:00.002+08:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Start time: 23 02 hrs
Name: Vanessa Leong
Sisters: 0
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: US Size 6
Height: eh. 155cm? yeah i know. im short. :D

Where do you live: Singapore. the tiny red dot.
Favourite drinks: Ice lemon tea, milo bing, teh bing, any fruity drinks. heh heh.
Favourite breakfast: erm. scrambled eggs, toast and chicken pie! (now i know where the fat comes from...)

Have you ever been on a plane? YUP.
Swam in the ocean? Close. the sea.
Fallen asleep at school? WHO DOESN'T? *looks guilty*
Broken someone’s heart: naaaah.
Fell off your chair? erm. once when i was in primary school. didn't see where the chair was and plonked my butt down. HAHA.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? yes. many times. up to the extent i fall asleep waiting. haha.
Save e-mails? the funny lame assed ones. HAHA.

What is your room like? it has light pink walls, a small fridge, a smaller tv, and wooden bed frame filled with soft toys from SOMEONE :D and wooden cupboards. and a big study table. okay my description skills suck.
What’s right beside you?: my handphone that wont stop ringing, dean koontz's frankenstein, clothes from the washing machine folded in stacks, my tiny umbrella, apollo biscuits.
What is the last thing you ate?: mum made kimchi soup. yummy! :D

Ever had chicken pox?: yup. i called it "pim-pals" HAHA.
Sore throat?: yes, and i tend to get them easily last time.
Stitches?: YUP. I WAS A CHUBBY KID LAST TIME OKAY! and maybe still chubby now? haha.
Broken nose?: nope. it must be painful.

Do you believe in love at first sight?: it depends. what if your love is blind? HAHA.
Like picnics?: hmm. depends on the company and the food! :D
Who was were the last person people you danced with?: uh. squid? :D okay i did a small one. hand gestures only. when the radio in the cab played 70's disco music. heh heh.
Last made you smile?: SQUID!
You last yelled at: the damned cab drivers last night. we waited for freaking half an hour and not a single cab stopped.

Today did you:

Talk to someone you like? UH HUH. squid, M.y, nor, jyun (ran into her and theng ong at ehub who watched the same movie as us!), kenneth see BEST FWENZ.
Kissed anyone: heh heh. you should know who.
Get sick: Nope. not today.
Talk to an ex: heck no.
Miss someone: not really?
Eat: chicken pie, duck rice with char shao and roast pork, popcorn and kimchi soup with veggies.

Best feeling in the world?: knowing that you love someone and that person loves you in return. *cheesy smile*
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: YES! this stinko square bear my bro gave me when i was sec 3 i think and a squid soft toy from ikea. :D
What’s under your bed?: err. its a cupboard. it keeps bags. heh
Who do you really hate?: hmm. not nice to say here now right?
What time is it now?: 23 29

Random

Is there a person who is on your mind now: Victor helios from dean koontz's frankenstein. im wondering how this guy managed to recreate humans using other human body parts. brrr.
Do you have any siblings: duh. didnt i just say it?
Do you want children: OF COURSE! i want twins. :D
Do you smile often: yup. but its hard when im suffering a bad case of pms though. heh.
Do you like your hand-writing: i have come to terms with it. HAHA.
Are your toe nails painted: not today. i wanna buy the hot pink nail polish from face shop and go NUTS!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?: :D
What color shirt are you wearing now: pale blue. with sweet melody all over it.
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday?: on the bus from the marina south pier to school.
I can’t wait till…: THE NEXT HOLIDAY.
When did you cry last: Last night. cause we waited for the cab for half an hour and none would stop or come or would be taken by other people in front of us. and i could not rush back in time for dinner with my family. i felt very bad. but it was pms as well.

Are you a friendly person: AM I?
Do you have any pets: never. =( i want cats!
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: online on the web cam with me, fighting to stay awake. I LOVE YOU!
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: of course he does!
Do you sleep with the TV on?: not really.. i hardly watch tv anymore. haha.
What are you doing right now?: multi tasking. it sucks.
Have you ever crawled through a window?: are you kidding? im too big..
Can you handle the truth?: depends on what truth. but i would like things out in the open.
Are you too forgiving?: i think so. i don't like people hating me and having this awkwardness.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: i like to say its abit of both.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: squid. so far he is the only one who has seen my tears.
How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: alot of people who mean alot to me.
Do you eat healthy?: HAHA. sometimes. is eating veggies ofte enough?
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: nahh. deleted it a week after we broke up.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: YEAH. I HAVE FEELINGS OKAY.
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: SQUID. OR M.Y. OR ANYONE I TRUST.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: MODERATELY LOUD. haha. i like to tell the world my lame ass-ed jokes. :D
Are you confident?: sometimes. i suffer from a bad case of low self esteem sometimes.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. watching cartoons every sunday morning
2. taking swimming lessons
3. learning how to make friendship bands. :D
4. playing the play station (yup, im that advanced)
5. learning how to ride the skate scooter!

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. CATCH HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3! (in the end we watched tropic thunder...)
2. come out with the feedback form for the talk tomorrow
3. accompany my folks for a facial appointment
4. do some grocery shopping for my mum
5. update my blog!

5 snacks I enjoy(now you will know how unhealthy my lifestyle is.. haha):
1. MASHED POTATOES. (shit this is damn fattening, but is so damn gooooood)
2. Dark chocolates
3. Chocolates
4. Ice cream
5. Biscuits

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Donate a portion to charity.
2. Give money to my folks regularly (its time they retired! haha)
3. Buy a nice place for a spa or just simply a place to live in at some exotic country like greece, hawaii, bali...
4. build a built in wardrobe and clothes to go with it. heh heh.
5. do something to make sure my money doesn't run dry. (i gotta agree with sam. haha)

5 of my bad habits:
1. picking at my nails when im nervous or bored.
2. gorging myself when im depressed or upset.
3. worrying too much.
4. feeling insecure. (low self esteem! damnit)
5. losing my temper and saying things that shouldn't be said. i hate it. and im learning to control it.

5 places I have lived in:
1. Marine Parade
2. Pasir Ris
3. Tampines
4. -
5. -

5 jobs I’ve had:
1. Event helper
2. Life guard
3. -
4. -
5. - (heh heh, what can i say? im daddy's little princess. HAHA)

hahaha. alrighty im not gonna sabotage anybody (see im nice). haha. whoever wants to take this quiz and go on ahead and lift this from my blog. :D okay. i need sleep. i have to wake up early tomorrow! and i will post about kusu when i have the pictures. :D

COME ON DOWN AND SUPPORT LS/SWIM TEAM!

2008-10-21T21:57:00.003+08:00

OUR BOOTH WILL BE LOCATED NEAR THE LIBRARY ON THIS COMING WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY. SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?

JOIN THE TP LIFESAVING/SWIM TEAM TODAY.

what puts a smile back on my face

2008-10-21T21:48:00.002+08:00

just a regular msn conversation with the squido. with a web cam. :D he really knows how to cheer me up and make me feel better when i feel like a pig. and when i stuff my face like a pig. and feel really down. :D thank you sotong.

this is..

2008-10-18T13:47:00.002+08:00

..the best damned thing that my eyes have ever seen. so far. :)

chalets, camps and such.

2008-10-18T09:46:00.009+08:00

its been awhile since i have blogged. haha. have been jammed packed with activities! :D lets see, there was LS CHALET on monday to wednesday then i had OCTOBER ORIENTATION CAMP on thursday to friday. :D and gonna have class bbq today! haha.

first of, LS CHALET was the BOMB. i swear. it was the best damned chalet i ever had in my entire life. grocery shopping, cleaning and looking after the kitchen, we girls cooked spag and it was a success, thanks to qi wen! and then we had night cycling till like 6 am in the morning (it was awesome, the wind in my face and laughing along with the others), 20 people queing for the one pathetic measly toilet in the chalet, sleeping in and waking up to play mahjong, going to squid's place to swim, bbq-ing the night away and so on. it was just the best thing ever. :) like what sam said, its like ure not alone anymore, you have people with you. this team is like family. i love this family. :)

okay so enough talks and more pictures!

okay will post even more pictures when i get them from nor. :D the october orientation was okay too. things worked out well i guess. haha except for the swelling of my third finger from the chalet that caused me to leave at night to see a doctor. haha.

okay enough for today. speaking of which, i think i need to start running again. stan chart is coming and this time last year, i was running regularly on weekends. geez. time to start running again!

TOMORROW IS SO BEAUTIFUL.

2008-10-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is gonna be a beautiful day. VERY. :D haha. okay i have been saying that non stop today. i should stop. ivp is tomorrow too. GOOD LUCK TO ALL COMPETING! :) and i watched eagle eye today with dad and bro. what a waste of time. the movie was stupid. haha. a total disappointment. max payne looks great though. and then again there is TWILIGHT! heh heh. sam, mei yan and i have a date.

oh and camp ended today. it was okay. pretty tiring, even though i didnt do much. its alot of hard work kk. HAHA. it was great. and i had a good time making new friends. :)

forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart.

2008-10-07T23:28:00.004+08:00

I'll Say A Little Prayer For You

by Dion Warwick

The moment i wake up,

before i put on my makeup,

I say a little pray for you.

While combing my hair now,

and wondering what dress to wear now,

I say a little prayer for you

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart,

and i will love you.

Forever, and ever, we never will part,

oh, how i love you.

Together, forever, that's how it must be,

To live without you,

would only meen heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear.

While riding i think of us, dear,

I say a little prayer for you.

At work i just take time,

and all through my coffee break-time,

I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart,

and i will love you.

Forever, and ever we never will part,

oh, how i'll love you.

Together, forever, that's how it must be.

To live without you,

would only mean heartbreak for me.

I say a little prayer for you

My darling believe me, ( believe me)

For me there is no one but you!

Please love me too (answer his pray)

And i'm in love with you (answer his pray)

Answer my prayer now babe (answer his pray)

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart

and i will love you

Forever, and ever we never will part

oh, how i'll love you

Together, forever, that's how it must be

to live without you

Would only mean heartbreak for me (oooooooooh)

to believe or not to believe.

2008-10-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

Pick your birth month.
→ Change the font to red for anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five that best apply to you.
→ Copy to your blog, livejournal, xanga, wordpress.
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list.

JANUARY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, Shy and Humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift.Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends.Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt and takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke (i prefer the LAME jokes more. heh heh. im sure you guys would agree with me). Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless (i have some fears that haunt me everyday). Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic (i am NOT, I REPEAT NOT, EGOISTIC. i have a boyfriend who is though). Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered (im actually quite a peace loving person! only when it comes to CERTAIN situations. heh). Angry when provoked. Easily jealous (i admit, it happens). Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic (bold not enough ah, must underline and highlight!). Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

ALRIGHTY! 5 people are: CEDRIC, LEO, SELINA, SQUID and WEI BIN!

heh heh, you guys know what to do. and frankly speaking, im quite looking forward to what squid has to say.. HAHA. i mean c'mon.. NOT EGOISTIC? *falls of chair and rolls around the floor from laughter* :D sorry squid, but i still love you though. heh heh.

alrighty so im gonna be gone for awhile. got MTC camp for october orientation starting tomorrow. and i havent packed! ahh! okay see you later alligators. :)

the flu bug is spreading..

2008-10-06T19:57:00.003+08:00

shit. i think i caught the flu bug from m.y luv. haha. i initially thought of slacking at home with the folks before i start the camps and chalet stuffs for the next few days and wont see them often. BUT. sigh. i started feeling feverish and the throat is tickling. haha. this sucks. i better sleep it off. :(

anyways i made a decision today and i shall stick by it. im sorry to have turned you guys down. but i think its the right choice for me right now. im just living in a perpetual fear that my grades will sink to rock bottom. i cant afford that anymore. my parents are extremely worried, to top it off. and they arent the only ones. i think its time to really buck up next sem. i know i said it many times before for the last few semesters, but there wasnt any way around it. time to really push it this time.

so aside from feeling crappy and such today, i felt better cause of two things. okay maybe three. this morning, went to play badminton with a few others from the LS team. :D that was before i felt sick. and then the second thing was, i received a message from squid! yay! so happy. i miss you babe. and finally, the last thing was, i went to make a stop at golden river today! the state of the shop is sad cause its very sparse now.. but the strings! i bought a whooping 5 dozen strings today, same as m.y. haha. an all time high! that cheered me up. i hope to make one more trip and buy more before it closes. and this time we managed to get chen an hooked to it. heh heh, dont worry buddy, il teach you the patterns. :D

alright alright. shall go rest. i hope i wont be sick. i wanna work tomorrow and earn lots and lotsa money for my early retirement! HAHA. who am i kidding.

my summer job? LIFE GUARD.

2008-10-05T22:19:00.010+08:00

Give me all your fears,

Throw it all away.

Think about the good things,

No matter what they say.

We will take tomorrow baby yeah,

One day at a time..

Take Tomorrow (One Day At A Time) by Butch Walker

i worked at tampines swimming sports complex today! haha. it was my first time and i was posted at the learner's pool today. i must say, it was abit scary at first cause it was so packed and full so i got worried that if anything happens, i might be panicky and not know what to do. haha. but it turned out fine at the end of the day.

the full timers there were a bunch of nice guys and before the dinner break, the time seemed to pass very quickly cause i was stationed at the main tower to cover yong seng, a part timer, who went to buy dinner for everyone. i got to talk to the other senior life guards and it was interesting. :D time seemed to pass slowly after dinner though. haha. but nevertheless! i survived! wahaha.

alrighty so as promised, here are the pictures from the fina world cup gig yesterday that ah cham sent! :D but first, two pictures that he said i must post in return of getting the pictures from him. SEE! im nice kk. hahaha.

what can i say? i love the beach! (though im abit too red from all that sun..)

uhm. haha. i just thought nor looked cute in this. heh heh.

okay here are the rest of the pictures! :D

Kenneth See *pinches self*: "See how skinny i am!"

Philip *raises eyebrows*: "Oh my! Seeing is believing!" hahaha.

introducing, the two mr sexy BODS who changed at the car park.

okay, totally lucky shot. i happened to be smiling. heh.

mr vice cap: "OH NO! NO MORE PAPARAZZIS PLEASE!"

a totally nice edited shot of me and m.y luv reaching for the skies!

chen an: "eh, where is my sampan?"

"FWAH! so heavy arh!"

Kenneth see: "yes, i know, the camera TOTALLY loves me." heh heh :D

vanny: "LAI! LEH LONG LEH LONG! BUY ONE GET TWO FREE!"

M.y: "huh you don't have M arh."

tanny: "hmm this looks nice!"

chen an: "WAH GOT SALE LEH! I MUST SEE THIS!" hahaha.

and finally, a nice edited group shot of us taken at the end of the day..

and an even nicer collage made of our faces caught off guard!

so in the end, despite the poor organisation and stuff at the end of the day, the jet skis in the afternoon and the thrill of sitting and riding it for a short while totally made up for it! :D

oh and if ure reading this, mr squid, il be there this saturday at 7.25pm at the airport to see your cute little butt clear customs, collect the luggage and walk through the gates and to me so that i can give you the biggest hug ever. so don't worry kk? :D i miss and love you.

a burnt lobster

2008-10-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

the girls came over for a sleep over last night! namely, mei yan luv, nor, sammy, sab and hoon. haha. we intended to watch movies but in the end we just had our HTHTs and pranks. heh heh. slept pretty late and because of that, was pretty tired while working the Fina world cup today, but no regrets! :D

so nor, mei yan and i woke up early at 6am and went to change and get ready. the folks agreed to giving us a free ride to bedok interchange where we met up with the others to cab down to east coast park. YAY! we arrived on time. this event, the Fina world cup is dang interesting. it has people doing open water swim distances such as 10k, 6k, 5k, 3k, 1k and so on. we even saw the olympic women's champion for the 10k open water swim. and i must say, the males and females alike, ARE HOT. seriously hot. *drools* and i must give them props man. they could complete the entire damn 10k distance and maintain a good pace through out! such an amazing inspiration.

okay so initially, we spent almost the entire morning waiting for instructions, of which none were given at all. so we just sat under the big green umbrella by the beach near the starting mark for the race. some of us were so tired that we actually lay down and slept in the shade, covering our eyes with the milo hat. haha. so basically, the morning was a complete bore.

BUT THEN. in the afternoon, we were paired up with people on jet skis to do rescues. oh my gosh, this was like my friggin first time on a jet ski, AND I LOVE IT! :D though i fell off it once and got a huge bump from it and that it caused me to loose my hat cause it got blown away, it was awesome shitz man! i was paired up with a guy called lin and at the end of it, he let me try riding the thing for fun! SHIOKNESS! haha. i so totally wanna learn more. anyone wanna come along? :D

so at the end of the day, we bought some stuff from the TYR store (heh heh heh i cant resist!) and collected our pay (a measly 40 bucks) and took lotsa pictures. shall post them up when i get them from professor cham. heh heh.

beautiful beautiful day. :)

2008-10-03T21:46:00.002+08:00

PASSED BTT! WAHAHAHA. IM NOW TWO MORE STEPS AWAY FROM GETTING MY LICENSE! WHOOOOO! :D TODAY TRULY IS A GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL DAY!

To Luke Wu Xi Yu Squid,

2008-10-03T10:13:00.005+08:00

heres to a great one year that has passed, and a wish for many many more to come.

for the times you have always been there for me, no matter what it was, from having to wipe the tears from my eyes, make me smile and laugh when im down or upset, rolling eyes and humouring me with my lame jokes, waiting for 3 hours while im at the hair dressers, giving me advice, words of encouragement and being patient with me and just being the way you are, im grateful to have you here with me.

i love you.

And i wonder, if im just built this way?

2008-09-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

Built This Way

by Samantha Ronson

Did you ever feel like you wanna be

Someone else for just one day,

Did you ever feel like you wanna

See through another pair of eyes,

Did you ever think I'm a wannabe with

Anyone else for just one day,

Did you ever you really think of me when i walked away?

You look, you don't sound apologetic,

You smoke your subjects at my eyes, like you think,

You know where you think you'll find, you think you'll figure me out tonight,

But you'll never know what i won't share,

Cause I don't care and I don't care,

You think you'll figure me out tonight,

But I don't care,

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way,

Cause every man that I know, makes me feel like'I'm too plain'

When it's over me and my selfish ways,

Go back to start again, go back to start again.

Did you ever feel like you should have said

Something smarter at that time,

Did you ever feel like you should have kept

It all to yourself,

Did you ever think it might be your fault

And never promise anymore,

Did you ever think it might not be me

No it was always me?

You look, you don't sound apologetic,

You smoke your subjects at my eyes, like you think,

You know where you think you'll find, you think you'll figure me out tonight,

But you'll never know what i won't share,

Cause I don't care and I don't care,

You think you'll figure me out tonight,

But I don't care,

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way

Cause every man that I know, makes me feel like'I'm too plain'

When it's over me and my selfish ways

Go back to start again

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way

Cause every man that I know, makes me feel like'I'm too plain'

When it's over me and my selfish ways

Go back to start again, go back to start again

You look, you don't sound apologetic,

You smoke your subjects at my eyes, like you think,

You know where you think you'll find, you think you'll figure me out tonight,

But you'll never know what i won't share,

Cause I don't care and I don't care,

You think you'll figure me out tonight,

But I don't care,

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way

cause every man that I know, makes me feel like'I'm too plain'

When it's over me and my selfish ways

Go back to start again,

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way

cause every man that I know, makes me feel like'I'm too plain'

When it's over me and my selfish ways

Go back to start again, go back to start again

Go back to start again.

Watching mean girls totally reminded me of this lovely song. haha. it just has alot of meaning. rachel mcadams sure can act as a real mean bi-atch. HAHA. but she can really act. i loved her acting in the notebook, it was so touching that i cried. really. i loved the last part. SIGH. i suddenly have an urge to watch the notebook and cry buckets! oh no! and there goes my mugging for BTT. GIRLS! we must watch the notebook, mean girls, 27 dresses, just my luck, 13 going on 30 and all the darned chick flicks ever made okay! HAHAHA. im so in a chick flick mood. :D

im turning into a hermit.

2008-09-28T20:18:00.009+08:00

"I love you more than anything else in the world combined. Isn't that enough?"

"Yes it is enough," he answered, smiling. "Enough for forever."

found this online. haha. i remembered this from the first book. this was like the sweetest thing ever. :) im very much looking forward to the movie coming out in december! haha.

anyways i woke up today with massive cramps and with the headache from hell. literally. i always hate this time of the month. grr. the hormones can really cause a serious mood swing. i feel like crap at times. oh well. anyways so i spent the entire day lazing at home again. haha.

OH AND FINALLY! i got the pictures from cheryl's birthday! this is from mer's cam. :)

but first off, this is our birthday girl, CHERYL CHUNG! happy to be 18. :)

HAHA. and check out the next two candid photos. heh heh, sherry and vien, don't kill me! :D

sherry: "heh, so you think you stronger than me ah. heh heh heh."

vivien: "sherry, sherry, heres a towel! don't fight me!"

HAHAHA. okay im dead the next time we have an outing. hahaha. i cant wait to see you girls again in october! and and for the sleep over when your As are over! :) i can feel the excitement already. whoooo!

a night of excitement, a day of boredom.

2008-09-27T14:02:00.005+08:00

so, i went to watch the F1 last night with ryan. managed to get the tickets thanks to squid's dad. :) haha. it was just a practice run. but it was pretty interesting, for a person like me who has never seen the F1 before. haha. took some pictures and videos. i didnt manage to take pictures of the pratice in session as my measly little handphone camera couldnt catch the cars in time. haha. they ARE that fast. haha.

anyways, lazy saturday at home today. i spent it cleaning up my room! its so much neater now. heh heh. *pats self on back* if anyone has been into my room recently, you would realise what a pig sty i have been living in. i can't even use the desk cause its cluttered with stuff and the chair was used to keep last semester's (i mean year 1, sem 2) notes. haha. but now its all packed up in a nice box under the shelf. i did gooooood. :)

okay and FINALLY. trailers of movies i wanna watch! they are great i tell you. pretty contrasting. and call me a gory person but i just LOVE the movie SAW. i think its brilliant. the story line sans the gore is the best. :D anyone wanna watch with me?

(sorry for the pretty sick video over here. haha)

oh and who can forget TWILIGHT! i hope it doesn't turn into like the Jumper movie, which was also based on a sci-fi novel. haha. the book is EXCELLENT. the suspense and the plot is so addictive, i just can't put it down. really. haha. im down to the last book. this is so exciting! :D if i fail BTT, you know why. hahaha.

2008-09-25T15:18:00.002+08:00

been pretty busy lately. many apologies for the lack of updates. haha. i have been pretty lazy to update ever since sunday, after cheryl's birthday steam boat with ceremix! i had the BEST time ever on sunday with the girls. we had a mini seoul gardan at her place with great food prepared by her mum (thanks auntie! :) ) and cooked by us. heh heh. the catching up session was the best. haha. we were doing head bobs and singing along to high school musical which was playing on the tv. haha. okay it mostly from cheryl. HAHA. im glad to have met up again girls. its been great. I CANT WAIT FOR OUR SLEEPOVER AFTER As! :D and and CAN SOMEONE SEND ME THE PICTURES TAKEN ON SUNDAY TO POST HERE? hahaha.

OH and not to mention what has kept me busy aside from job hunting, PURCHASING THE TWILIGHT SERIES. haha. omg i havent buried my nose in books for a VERY long time. this was the first time in many months that i have. :) its really an addictive read. and as a good friend, i managed to get dear mei yan addicted, sam is gonna be next. haha. but dear rach doesn't seem interested the moment she saw me reading it. haha. i know im slow, but im glad i got to read it. i love the way the author described EDWARD CULLEN. topaz eyes, with honey gold flecks and a nice crooked grin on his face. GOSH. i SO get the picture. HAHA. and he is a vampire too. i want a vampire boyfriend too! HAHAHA. vampires in this book are so hot. well, most of them. heh heh.

AND FINALLY, i have cut my hair! it was quite sudden actually, i just decided to cut it since mum and dad were cutting. haha. :) so don't get a shock when any of you see me. heh heh.

ABBA FEVER

2008-09-20T22:29:00.001+08:00

watched Mamma Mia today. AND all i can say is OH. MY. GAWD.

i feel so so bad for ignoring it now. i totally remembered the days when i was young and my folks would put on the ABBA cd. Dancing queen, S.O.S, Mamma mia, I have a dream, Chiquitita, Waterloo, Money, Money, Money, The name of the game, Knowing me, Knowing you; just some of the classics from ABBA. dad was right, he was predicting that after the movie, people would be digging out the ultimate ABBA collections cds and start listening to them again. well, i know he did that! and i am doing that now! haha. :D

sigh. good times, good times. the thing about ABBA's songs are they are feel good, catchy and you can't help but belt it out mid way through the song. haha. i totally felt that way when watching the movie. oh and believe me! i heard 3 people sitting around my area in the cinema singing along. :)

do i love ABBA's songs? oh, i do! i do, i do, i do, i do, i do.

i just wanted to let you know that...

2008-09-19T23:03:00.006+08:00

Honey honey, how you thrill me, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, nearly kill me, ah-hah, honey honey
I'd heard about you before
I wanted to know some more
And now I know what they mean, you're a love machine
Oh, you make me dizzy

Honey honey, let me feel it, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, don't conceal it, ah-hah, honey honey
The way that you kiss goodnight
(The way that you kiss me goodnight)
The way that you hold me tight
(The way that you're holding me tight)
I feel like I wanna sing when you do your thing

I don't wanna hurt you, baby, I don't wanna see you cry
So stay on the ground, girl, you better not get too high
But I'm gonna stick to you, boy, you'll never get rid of me
There's no other place in this world where I rather would be

Honey honey, touch me, baby, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, hold me, baby, ah-hah, honey honey
You look like a movie star
(You look like a movie star)
But I know just who you are
(I know just who you are)
And, honey, to say the least, you're a dog-gone beast

So stay on the ground, girl, you better not get too high
There's no other place in this world where I rather would be

Honey honey, how you thrill me, ah-hah, honey honey
Honey honey, nearly kill me, ah-hah, honey honey
I heard about you before
I wanted to know some more
And now I know what they mean, you're a love machine

taken from "Honey Honey" by ABBA.

TGIF

2008-09-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

today was a hot day! haha. okay random. but i mean literally, it was HOT. haha. i have never sweat so much! anyways today went to meet mei yan luv and nor. we met at 201 to intro nor to our DARLING golden river. mwahaha. yes we got another one addicted. NOR, SHIOK RIGHT. then we headed to to photo shop for mei yan and i to take ic pictures for the life guard job at tampines swimming complex.

we headed to tm after which to makan at long johns and wander around. namely, Xcrafts, charles and keith and montip. at montip, there was a hilraious scene. nor was like trying on this head band and refused to take off. so this girl went to the cashier and was like, "err, i want to buy this" and pointed to her head. haha. the sheepish expression on nor's face and the cashier's confused face was CLASSIC. should have taken a photo. haha.

so we then walked to sports complex, dropped off the forms and went for training. oh and they told us to come back on tuesday for trials for the job! yay! i hope i get the job.. so training today was great for me i guess. allen taught me a different way to train my left arm for the stretch cord. hope it helps. i want BICEPS! BICEPS! HAHAHA.

oh and i FINALLY and SUDDENLY had a brain wave on a special something for a special someone. heh heh heh. :)

the day out with 3 out of 6 of the girls. :)

2008-09-18T22:45:00.008+08:00

HAPPINESS.

it is the one and only word i can describe for today. okay maybe joy and stuff. but happiness is what i really felt today! after so long (okay maybe only in weeks), i met up with sher, vien and rach! we went to town. was supposed to shop for something and watch a movie. but instead we just shopped. hahaha.

we went to raffles place for lunch at chippy's when i totally forgot there was an outlet at far east. HAHA. then we walked around, took pictures and then headed to far east to vivien's beloved maggies. THE ONLY REASON WHY WE WOULD TRAVEL THERE. HAHA. we literally walked into almost every shop and tried on clothes and dresses and laughed like hell and left. :D oh and we played the game SHOOT, SHAG and MARRY which i learnt from mei yan luv and ky and intro-ed to the girls. HAHA. the first question we asked vien was the FUNNIEST. now we know who vien wanna shag eh? *wink wink* hahaha.

so after that rach left and the rest of us walked round weelock place and zara and headed back to east point cause vien and sher needed stuff from popular (JC people. sigh. HAHA.). and i tell you, the entire bus ride back was hilarious, we were like totally laughing like mad. we were eyeing this cute guy on the bus (labelled "MAN CANDY" hahaha), tried to do impersonations of duffy's" mercy", acting like bimbos and trying to imagine us doing a pussycat doll routine, or danity kane routine. HAHAHA. super hilarious. we kept laughing like mad. hahaha. i think everyone in the bus thought we were nuts. after that i had a talk with vien over certain stuffs while waiting for her bus to come. haha. i think she missed like, 4 buses? too crowded. HAHA.

this is why i love my girls, we laugh at the most random and lame stuff and act crazy together. :) and im so looking forward to the party on sunday! its gonna be like, the bimbos united! hahahaha.

OH and to vien and sher, you know the moment i turned on my ipod to go home, i heard duffy singing "yeaaaah, yeaaaah, yeaaaah". HAHAHA. pictures from today! check out some of the unglam moments. HAHA! vien is gonna kill me.

anyways im feeling abit down though, for some strange reason. yeah i know we talked through this and i know you're gonna be damn busy cause they are behind schedule and we spent a day together, but its like i can rarely get to see you anymore cause they are making you work over time and during the weekends. this is just the petty side of me talking. like what vien and i were discussing, its probably normal to tend to feel like that but i must be realistic and mature about it! haha. well its time to learn vanny, time to learn. you owe me a big hug after all this kk! haha. :)

dancing muffins and hanging out with darlings. :)

2008-09-17T11:09:00.003+08:00

i had the most interesting dream last night, after watching the dark knight with squid. i dreamt that i failed this english test. failed badly. then i was super depressed cause my english standard was usually okay. so to cheer me up, squid brought me to this cute pastry shop that sold the pastries i liked and they were shaped in like cute little things, like the ginger bread man, donuts shaped in a van, cute little biscuits shaped in remote controls. haha. and the day special was dancing muffins! i was so enjoying it and grabbing everything off the shelf cause they said it was on the house. HAHA. just then, the alarm on my phone went off. -.-

squid says its a sign that i need psychiatric help. HAHA. i think its more of like a reflection of who i am. like sometimes, issues like failing english and all that could really get me depressed easily and quickly. and YES. i eat when im depressed. hence the part where im brought to a cute pastry shop. haha. oh and i like cute stuff. so yeah thats my guilty secret. haha.

okay dreams aside, today im heading over to golden river to buy string with mei yan luv! :) then we are gonna head down to safra tampines to apply for a job then go for training. hope i can survive the trials. i know for sure that chance that i won't make it is pretty high. so not too much hopes pinned on. just to break my PB. haha.

AND AND! TOMORROW IS GONNA BE GREAT! im gonna meet my lovely ceremix! okay well mainly rachel, sher and vien. we are gonna RUN! haha. and watch mama mia! :) so looking forward to it.

i am at peace now. i hope.

2008-09-13T23:12:00.006+08:00

many apologies for the crude post. i was too agitated. as what squid said, i have to come be at peace. HAHA. well im fine now. whatever lah. whats done is done. i should channel my energy to people who actually appreciate my efforts right?

so anyways nothing much today, went to have crab with squid and his mum today. squid caught a beetle today and apparently, its shell has the same colour as what i was wearing today. -.- hahaha. thanks squid, you know how to make me smile. :)

I AM PISSED

2008-09-13T16:57:00.004+08:00

IM VERY PISSED OFF. I WAS HAVING A GREAT DAY TODAY UNTIL I SUDDENLY SAW IT. GRRRR. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT WAS BUGGING ME, JUST TEXT, CALL OR MSN ME. IL TELL YOU. GRRRRR. WHAT THE FUCK MAN.

y'know, im once again reminded WHY im so looking forward to october.

I CANT WAIT ANY LONGER. *fumes*

content or stress? hmm.

2008-09-11T22:02:00.005+08:00

im too lazy to update on what happened during the camp. it was long and tiring. but still, it was quite enjoyable (though there were only like 20 participants). made new friends and stuff. haha. well many thanks to those who came to help, especially chen ann and ky! it was quite last minute when i asked but you guys still came to help. thanks so much. and apparently according to chen and ky, i look like a small boy/ fillipino maid in this picture above. har har.

i would say the only mood spoiler of the entire 3 days would be the second day, late afternoon, RESULTS! haha. well shall not talk about it. thanks squid for rushing down from work to meet me in school for a short while even though you were almost home. i feel much better knowing you are always here for me. :) well, i felt content cause i improved grades overall, but abit sad due to a drop in GPA. again. what the hell is wrong with you vanny?

of triumphs and failures

2008-09-08T23:42:00.007+08:00

a post to finally update after so long! sorry people. been pretty busy. haha. lets see, life saving nationals open water was held yesterday and on saturday at sentosa. it was really an interesting event. :)

oh and congrats to everyone! temasek lifesaving team won the men's champion and 2nd runner up for the overall champion!

it was a totally unexpected win as we didnt expect much due to the fact that the teams consisted mostly of juniors and we didnt win as much events for open water. overall, it was a great experience. cheering each other on and such. personally, my performance for open water wasnt as good as still water. as what squid said, im not built for running sprints! hahaha. well at least i know i pushed my hardest even though i came in last. i literally waddled like a penguin instead of running to the finishing line. HAHA! but it was a good experience for me. seeing the team cheer for me actually pushed me to complete the damned thing and not be embarrassed bout being last. haha.

well at least now, i know what my standards are and where i stand. hopefully, i would get to take part again next year, AND i hope to clock in at least 1 minute and 20 seconds or less for the 100m manikin tow with clip and fins. whooo! hope and train. thats the best i can wish for. haha.

but one thins i will never for at all is, as what coach said, it was the team spirit that is what makes this team. the bond we really had was so strong. i loved the feeling of togetherness. its like finding your family in this team and having a real sense of belonging. so what if we didnt win overall champion or more gold medals? we were there to support each other through and through, shouting, screaming, running along with them, jumping up and down just to root for our team mates, despite the fact that we know that the waves crashing down on them would cause them not to hear. this is what this life saving team does. and that is why i love this team so much. :)

well aside from the nationals and trainings, i have been helping out with the prep for the engine leadership camp (which is starting tml..) programme. well after all the planning and scrambling, i hope things turn out well. haha. il be gone for the next 3 days. so okay time for rest. its gonna be a long 3 days...

terrible misunderstandings

2008-09-03T22:46:00.004+08:00

today was supposed to be a good day. a slight misunderstanding made things worst. i know that you do the best you can for me but i guess i wasn't showing or being understanding enough. im sorry. i hope we could see where we both were coming from and work things out. i just want to see you and to give you a big hug right now. im sorry, i didn't mean to make you upset.

PROJECT RUNWAY MADNESS!

2008-09-03T00:18:00.005+08:00

omg im so glad the exams are over cause i so totally have time to freaking watch season 4 and 5 of project runway!

just watched finished season 4 and i MUST SAY, IM SO GLAD THAT CHRISTIAN WON! like omg man, he is like, THE BEST! i mean i like jillian too, but christian's clothes are totally unqiue and so chic. (can you believe this coming from me??) hahaha. and he may seem arrogant but i love his character. he is so dramatic, so entertaining and interesting! especially when he says fierce to describe fab stuff. so cute. :D i also loved jillian's collections. i think they were so pretty and the variety of dresses and stuff are amazing. drools.

the collection was so awesome, the designers were like (as what nick ferrero puts it) "you want clothes? here they are, bitch." HAHA. thats so fierce. oh my, the fierce thing is totally sticking on me.
okay, season 5 of project runway, BRING IT ON BITCH! HAHA.*snaps fingers*

vids made by the very very talented SAMMY!

2008-09-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

LS NATIONALS!

2008-09-01T10:44:00.002+08:00

i don't have much pictures to update for yesterday's event. BUT. all i can say is, GOOD JOB PEOPLE! we have done the best that we can! and..

CONGRATS TO MEI YAN LUV AND NOR FOR GETTING GOLD AND BREAKING THE RECORD WITH A WHOOPING TIME OF 12.3s FOR LINE THROW! WHOO! :D

haha mei yan luv, told you you could do it! all that hard work for the past few months have paid off. great job girl. you should have seen it man. nor did a legendary catch of the rope in the air. damn zai eh, both of them so cute. they have been smiling like mad ever since the win, they must have been smiling even in their sleep. hahaha.

anyways overall, yesterday was a pretty good day for me too, especially the 100m manikin tow with clip and fins. whoo! i broke my own PB! it was 1.30 seconds! i think it was the clipping that helped cause the tube wasnt as hard as the ones in school. :D kenneth yeo was so right. thanks man! i owe you a drink! :D though i didnt win any placings, coming in third for my heats was a good enough achievement for me. haha. whooo. this is one day il never ever forget! *smiles like an idiot*

il post more when i get the pictures. and finally, GOOD JOB TP LS! we are in the running for men's overall champion! lets work hard and kick ass this weekend for open water! WHOO! :D

will the real squid please stand up

2008-08-30T00:53:00.004+08:00

"Just when i am missing the real one, all i can do is hang onto the substitute."

resurrected from the dead

2008-08-30T00:00:00.007+08:00

EXAMS. ARE. SO. DAMN. OVER.

WHOOSAAA! hahaha. i never felt so much joy and happiness. i can finally burn all my notes (okay maybe i should keep MGTAIRC in case of supp paper. HAHA). first of, sorry for not updating this dead blog of mine for the entire of last week. haha.

exam week was total killer, and i spent most of my time studying with squid, chen an and mei yan. STUDYING COMRADES! haha. we would occupy the project rooms at business school till late at night, munching on cup noodles, chocolates and chips! (yes my waist line increased dramatically) just check out the load! haha. i will post more pictures when i get it from mei yan luv. :D

oh and on monday, it was hoony's birthday! happy belated birthday girlfriend! :) and the next day, it was my birthday! haha. what did i spend doing on that day? met up with squid and headed over to the driving centre! YAY! i signed up for BTT and my test is on the 3rd of october (auspicious day huh.. haha). after that we walked around parkway (InQbox not selling the four lens camera anymore. SNIFF) and then ta-pao-ed lunch and headed to his grandma's place to study. in front of the plasma tv. and with the nice sea breeze. its no wonder we fell asleep soon in front of the tv with our tummy's filled with food. HAHA. then we played with bello, had dinner and left for home.

remember the lovely love story dinosaurs? we happened to find them in parkway! haha. :D

thanks for all the greetings and presents people! i loved them very much. :) its at times like this that you seriously feel very loved. especially thanks to SQUID, CEREMIX, CLIQUE, MEI YAN LUV and NOR! :D oh and the LS team too! haha.

anyways since today was the last paper (which was.. ARGH! don't wanna talk about it. meow) and it was teacher's day, ceremix met up again to go back to good ol' PRCS. haha. nothing much changed. just lesser teachers and familiar faces. good to see mr collins and mrs see again. :D afterwards, hung out with ceremix at tm. always great to hang out with my girls again. heh heh. wait for A's to end kk, they we can PAR-TAY! haha. il post pictures taken with ceremix when i get them. so afterward, went for the last training before nationals and collected my jammers. cool stuff. heh heh. and let's just say i hope im ready for sunday. i know i will do my best. its just whether it is enough. gah.

ANYWAYS! i recently have this craze with vintage cameras. check it out..

ANYONE CAN GET ME ONE OF THESE BABIES? I WILL LOVE YOU FOR LIFE! :D

i think im blogging like squid. omg.

2008-08-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

today has been a pretty good day! tommy really is a nice guy. he kept to his word on what was gonna come out and the paper today was pretty smooth sailing. while doing the paper, i remembered cursing myself for being so stupid to memorise every tutorial question. -.- oh well. too hard working? hahaha.

and the day just got better as i went to do a mini training today! yay! haha. okay lah it wasnt hard core training. i went down to practice the 100m clip thing and timed myself to get a gauge of how far behind i am. heh heh.

well im quite pleased cause the timing i clocked for trials was 1.44. but this time around, i clocked a whooping 1.36! okay so its not very very fast but its a teensy improvement. haha. still have room for improvement. i timed my 50m freestyle too. just for fun. haha. its now at 45 seconds! haha. once again its not very fast but hey, a tiny improvement as compared to before. gonna train more on it during this coming holidays. SECRET TRAINING ANYONE? as what phillip says, top secret. *SHH* HAHAHA.

omg. okay i better stop blogging bout trainings and timings. i think im turning into squid! oh no!

2008-08-21T16:56:00.000+08:00

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE YOU STUPID THING!

pardon my behaviour.

Baby can you please just stay..

2008-08-20T20:40:00.002+08:00

"She Said, I Said (Time We Let Go)"

by NLT

[Verse 1 - Travis]

Don't know where to start 'cuz something ain't going right

Feel it in my soul 'cuz

I've tried, oh baby

Tried to keep you satisfied, please don't cry

I just think we both need time

I just feel that we are in the same room

But living two worlds apart

And it's causing too much pain

[Chorus]

She said, "Baby can you please just stay

It ain't too late to work this thing out,"

I said, "Girl this ain't easy for me,

At least the truth is coming out"

She said, "Why can't we make up like the last time,

I'm just afraid to hear you say go."

I said, "Baby I'm sorry, I think it's time we let go."

"Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave,

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay"

"Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave 'cuz

I think it's time we let go"

[Verse 2 - Kevin]

See these teardrops falling from your eyes (from your eyes)

That don't change my mind (oh baby)

Please don't make things more difficult then they gotta be

I can't take no more

This is killing me

And everytime I look at you I see more reason for me to leave you,

And it's causing me too much pain yeah!

[Chorus]

She said, "Baby can you please just stay (stay)

It ain't too late to work this thing out, (I said)"

I said, "Girl this ain't easy for me,

At least the truth is coming out (coming out)"

She said, "Why can't we make up like the last time,

I'm just afraid to hear you say go." (say go)

I said, "Baby I'm sorry, I think it's time we let go." (time to it let go)

"Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave (baby don't leave)

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay" (I gotta leave)

"Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave 'cuz

I think it's time we let go." (think it's time to go)

"Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay"

"Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave 'cuz

I think it's time we let go."

[Kevin & Travis]

Time that we let go!

[Chorus]

She said, "Baby can you please just stay (please just stay)

It ain't too late to work this thing out, (this thing out)

"I said, "Girl this ain't easy for me,

At least the truth is coming out (coming out)" (she said)

She said, "Why can't we make up like the last time, (make up the last time)

I'm just afraid to hear you say go." (wanna say go)

I said, "Baby I'm sorry, (GO!) (say go)

I think it's time we let go." (time we let go)

"Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave (I gotta leave) (I gotta leave)

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay" (I gotta leave) (I gotta leave)

"Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave 'cuz

I think it's time we let go." (no, no, no, no)

"Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave (I gotta leave) (I gotta leave)

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay" (I can't stay) (I can't stay)

"Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave 'cuz

I think it's time we let go."

IMMA SO TOALLY GONNA SING THIS SONG IN THE SHOWER! AAAHH!

no joke. im putting this song on repeat on my itunes. :D baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave..

of playing with the sand and singing to our hearts content

2008-08-20T10:27:00.010+08:00

okay so i wanted to wake up at 830 to study. guess what time it is now. grr. good job vann. -.-

so a quick picture post before i head back to STUDYING (my MOST favourite past time), these are some of the pictures taken on sunday during beach training (where i was turned into a human mummy and buried alive) and the lunch after beach training and monday during the kbox outing where we had a goodbye party for someone special in the life saving team. turns out that alot of people have hidden singing talents. oh and i never sang so many jay chou songs before in my ENTIRE LIFE. now that is a big feat. haha.

BEACH TRAINING:

hahah check these series of pictures out. it shows nor running up to me and scaring me. HAHA. damn cute!

KBOX:

for all the times of fun and laughter, the man who inspired us, the person who made us what we are today, the man who will forever stay in ur hearts, we will miss you, patrick.

THE BEST DAMN THING THAT IS GONNA HAPPEN

2008-08-16T19:03:00.004+08:00

YES! YOU READ IT RIGHT! THE BEST DAMN THING OF THE MONTH (WITH THE EXCEPTION OF MY BIRTHDAY. HAHA) IS GONNA HAPPEN!

UGLY BETTY SEASON TWO IS PREMIERING ON 28TH AUGUST!!!!

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! IM A HUGE HUGE FAN AND IT JUST MEANS I GET TO SEE MORE OF ERIC MABIUS AGAIN! *DROOOOOLS *

okay, sorry just had to announce it. im so happy i cant contain my excitement. :DDDDDDDD

EDITED:

I JUST SAW THE ADS. THEY ARE SHOWING PROJECT RUNWAY TOO ON THE 28TH AUGUST!! I LOVE THAT SHOW! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! PURE HAPPINESS. *SCREAMS* *TOOTHY BOGAY SMILE*

OMG. i sound like a total bimbo. HAHA.

What is your super hero?

2008-08-16T15:02:00.002+08:00

Your results:
You are Spider-Man

Spider-Man		75%
Superman		70%
Green Lantern		60%
Wonder Woman		53%
Supergirl		53%
Robin		48%
Catwoman		40%
The Flash		35%
Hulk		35%
Iron Man		35%
Batman		15%

You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

heh heh. spider man spider man! :D

yesterday was THE definition of slack day. i went to school to print and consolidate all my notes for each subject. wah yesterday was the first time i saw the aunty's jaw drop when i showed her the notes to bind. heh. if ure an AMS student, you will so totally get what i mean. will take a picture of when i get the chance. haha. '

anyways spent time with the LS team yesterday. we intially wanted to eat at sugar loaf, but landed up at mensa. HAHA. and i heard a piece of very good news yesterday. i am ETERNALLY grateful to chen an, mei yan and coach. time to make good use of the opportunity given to me. jia you vanny! :D

not thinking about it makes me feel better.

2008-08-14T12:16:00.002+08:00

whoopeedoo! the damned projects are so over as of yesterday. HAH. but then again, i have traded one thing for another..

THE EXAMS.

sigh. and i havent started proper revision. where is your time management vann? tsk tsk. yesterday during training, we learnt how to kick off from the floo with the mannikin. haha. it was challenging, i have to admit. im sure one slow learner. haha. nevermind, slowly learn. =)

anyways coach also told us the results of who made it into the team for nationals. first of, congrats to all that made it in!

haha. there is no team B for girls, so only 6 girls were selected. haha. unforutantely though, i didn't make the cut. well, yeah i was disappointed, i admit. i mean who wouldn't be right? haha but like i mentioned earlier, i already prepared myself for the results by not expecting too much. it made it easier to accept the results. haha. i know i pushed myself hard and tried my best. its okay though, there is always next year, if im around and not in some ulu country doing OSIP. haha. =p

An unusual love.

2008-08-10T22:30:00.005+08:00

Alright. so one more project down! yay! haha. hoon and jyun came over since 10.30 am and we chionged all the way til 9 plus and they left. haha. now left with airfield. jia you girls! good job! =)

well well, so while we were resting, they chanced upon an old word document of a love story that my bro had to write when he was in secondary 1 as an english project. and i must say, CREDIT MUST BE GIVEN TO ME OKAY. i helped think if the lead actress name, the title of the story, and adviced him on how the story format should be like. hmph. so hoon and jyun were impressed. i decided to post it here to let you guys decide. heh heh. enjoy. :D

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An Unusual Love.

by Ryan Leong

It was neither the coldness of the ground nor the aching of my heart I felt. It was the warmth of her love. Drawing slow deep breaths, I realized it did not hurt as much as I thought it would. I could recall her last words; they were like a tune playing endlessly in mind. I recall my life so far as I lay dying. I am dying at an awfully young age. My name is Gabriel. This is my story.

They say life is like a story book. My idea of stories? There are no happy endings. If there were happy endings, something bad would happen to make it sad or bad. My story ended badly. I kept on remembering Dawn’s face. Even as she lay dying on the hospital bed, dying, she still had that radiant smile. Her smile reminded me of the dawn. Like sunrise, it brought me happiness.

Dawn was my wife. We met a year ago. We were working at the same place. Her cubicle was opposite mine. We often chatted during that time and I summoned all my courage to ask her out. After that, everything was smooth sailing. We started dating and eventually got married. Then, things started to spin out of control. It started on our honeymoon. It was supposed to be the best day ever. It was the worst.

We were on our way to our honeymoon location. The sky was bright and the day was beautiful. We drove off into the highway leaving all our troubles behind. Halfway into our journey, Dawn started coughing a lot. I got worried and pulled over. Her coughs got worse as the minutes ticked by. I turned the car around and drove to the hospital. She did not stop.

That was the day of our so called ‘honeymoon’. Still lying on the ground. A group of people crowding around me started gawking. They just stared at me with no intention to help. That was what I wanted them to do. I did not want to live anymore. I was sick and tired of it. I just wanted to pass off quickly. The next thing I remembered was the day the doctor gave the test results.

It was that musty smell and white wash walls that made me feel sick. I bit my lip and drew deep breaths. A few drop of sweat tricked down my forehead. I was waiting for the results of Dawn’s medical test. The solemn doctor approached me. By the look on his face, I could safely say that he had bad news for me. He said that Dawn had cancer. The threat was undetected and she was in the final stages. She would die. She had only a few days left in her life. The doctor left. I just stood there, lost, not knowing what to do.

A young man in a smart white uniform started to check me. He shone a light at my eyes. Before I knew it, I was lifted onto a stretcher. I tried to tell them to leave me but all that came out was a sound like, “Mmm…..” My brain clicked. Not literally but metaphorically. I remembered the day that Dawn left this world.

The faint beeping of the machine told me that Dawn did not have much time left. She lay on the hospital bed, dying. Even though she was dying, she still looked beautiful. She smiled. I gripped her arm. She was about to say her last words. She whispered in my ear. Then my mind went blank. The only thing in my mind was the continuous dead beep of the machine.

That is the story. The tragic tale. This is romance in a different way. Not your typical “boy meets girl” and “lived happily ever after” story. As the ambulance sped of f to the hospital with me in it, I realized something. Dawn would not have wanted this for me. Dawn would not have wanted me to jump off a thirty-storey building. But then again, I was wrong. It was that familiar sound.

The continuous dead monotonous beep.

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oh and i must add, any similarity in the names of the characters and of those in real life are purely coincidental and was not used with any intent. and no animals or people were hurt in this production. HAHA.

so, what do you think? :D

emoticons.

2008-08-08T23:32:00.001+08:00

SO CUTE! >.<

sleepy sleepy friday.

2008-08-08T21:19:00.002+08:00

"no matter what happens, il still be here to love you."

i have a sudden urge to watch Love Actually. i think it is a beautiful show. the one that i liked was the one where kiera knightly was married to another guy but she had a friend who was in love with her (above picture). anyone has the show? can lend me? AFTER THE EXAMS.

haha. anyways the chionging session last night was okay. i lasted till like around 4 plus? then totally knocked out. jyun used my sotong toy as a pillow. hoon chionged her law project without sleep too. our champion. haha. okay girls, 2 more frigging projects to go! whoo!

anyways the original plan today was to actually go to school with squid after having lunch at his place to swim. but thanks to the lack of sleep for the past few days, i ended up sleeping at his place. like seriously, just knocked out man. when i fell asleep, it was 1 plus, but when i woke up, it was almost 4. omg. what a pig. and i snored too. HAH! so we changed plans and went to tm to buy his white shirt and red shorts for his life guard-ing tomorrow. i cant wait to work, i need money, TO SHOP.

an internal conflict with my emotions.

2008-08-07T20:49:00.008+08:00

Am now fighting to stay awake/take a break before jyun and hoony come over and commence our ALL NIGHTER CHIONG SESSION for the projects. yes, we are THAT hard working okay. no sleep tonight, anyone? so since the weather is super duper nice, and i feel like il fall asleep if i don't do something, i decided to do this quiz that i found on a blog while blog hopping.

Favourites:
Favourite colour: Green, Turqouise, Purple, Blue, Pink.
Favourite food: PASTA and FISH & CHIPS.
Favourite movie: tons; they mostly have drop dead gorgeous male leads.
Favourite sport: SWIMMING/LIFE SAVING.
Favourite day of the week: days when i get to do craaaaaaazy stuff with the team, hang out with the girls AND SLACK.
Favourite ice-cream: BEN AND JERRY'S TURTLE SOUP and HAAGAN DAAZ MACADAMIA NUT. <3

Currents:
Current mood: PISSED OFF. GROUCHY.
Current clothes: squid's old shirt and pink boxers.
Current computer wallpaper: a picture of sammy, hoony, mei yan luv and me, taken during osim.
Current time: 21.15pm
Current surroundings: on my bed, in my room, which is freaking cold.
Current annoyances: people who try to help but are evidently FAILING in making me feel better. (sorry, its the grouchiness talking)
Current thoughts: better not to say here, there are too many and its not nice to say it here. bleah.

First:
First bestfriend: eh.. Celester from primary school! what a waste i don't talk to her anymore.
First crush: erm. no idea.
First movie: MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. the one where tom cruise did the legendary hang by the rope thingy.
First lie: too many lies to remember. =x
First music: lullabies? duh.

Last:
Last drink: Honey and lemon drink that mum made.
Last car ride: yesterday, took a cab to school.
Last crush: squid lor. and a particular someone else. HEH. *brows*
Last phone call: Dad asking me where the hell the freaking handphone charger is.
Last CD played: spice girls. had a sudden retro flash back.

Have you ever... :
Have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: yeah, but that was in the past.
Have you ever broken the law: not that i know of.
Have you ever been arrested: HECK NO.
Have you ever been on tv: when i was in secondary two, they featured my cca, radio station. BUT, it was on the tamil channel. -.-
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: nuh-uh, these lips belong to people i deem DESERVING.

5 Random things you are good at:
- Being incredibly, ridiculously and unbelievebly LAME. hence, the title, corny vanny.
- Singing ridiculously loudly and terribly in the shower.
- Eating/sleeping/dreaming.
- Exceeding my handphone bill (unfortunately)
- Opening my mouth and saying things that sometimes should be just left unsaid.

4 things you've done today:
-Gone to school. (counts right. haha)
-Submit the ALFOP assignment in class.
-STRING SHOPPING WITH MEI YAN LUV! :D
-Eat finish an entire bowl of green curry chicken.

3 things you hear right now:
-98.7fm playing Second Hand Serenade's Fall for you.
-The wind chime in my room.
-Duffy's Warwick Avenue when my phone receives a message.

i seriously need to find out what's wrong with me. where does all this grounchiness, sudden easily irritable feelings and pissy moods come from. *bangs head against wall* thanks selina for that picture. haha! super cute. jia jia, jia you!

vanny, vanny, vanny, if you don't watch your mouth, you might just lose him one fine day.

Yet another random convo..

2008-08-07T02:30:00.006+08:00

arthur:

oh ya.. ur bdae comin ya... time for my dead or alive boxers revenge

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

HAHAHAHAHA hows the boxers btw

arthur:
haha

arthur:
i have not wore it be4..

arthur:
so paiseh lor

arthur:
i tink joel burnt his

arthur:
i swear u gonna get lingerie

arthur:
or u wan me wear tt boxers s ur present?

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :
no way man

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :
its super wrong

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

imagine you walk up to me

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

then PULL OUT UR BOXERS

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

IN ENGINE

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

AND SAY

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

HI JIE

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

vanny: "Let's go to the park, i wanna kiss you underneath the stars" :

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

arthur:
ok

arthur:
I WILL DO TT

arthur:
HAHAHA

*GULP*

ARTHUR LIM YUAN DE. PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME SORE EYES! I STILL NEED TO TAKE EXAMS!

life saving is love.

2008-08-04T23:34:00.010+08:00

trials today was fine. haha. the 100m mannikin thingy with torpedo tube was damn damn tiring. haha. but the highlight was what we did AFTER the trials. haha. damn cool lah. nor and sam at first started with trying to jump into the pool and land up after the lane rope. soon, the entire team started jumping in. HAHA. super fun man and we all looked funny while jumping in. =) here to elaborate what happened..

WE LIKE SO ROCK CAN. X)

2008-08-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

YAY! AIR CARGO IS DONE! X) now left with airport system and punctuality. whew.

Thanks mei yan my luv, for sending this MMS in the noon while you guys were at beach training while i was stuck at home.. =) i wish i could be there.. soon kk?

2008-08-03T01:04:00.002+08:00

ITS BEEN 10 HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY MONTHS! :D

if only everyday could be like this..

2008-08-02T22:15:00.003+08:00

a nice sunny saturday by the beach, walking bello, hand in hand and having endless conversations. this is how i wish i could spend my days like this, with no one else, but the squid. thank you so much, it took my mind off alot. i feel much better today. haha. =)

vanny wanny is tired.

2008-08-02T12:59:00.003+08:00

i am now at school, outside the LT, waiting for the sotong to complete his leadership exam. haha. let's see, yesterday's training was somehow tiring and disappointing for me. i shall just talk about why its tiring. haha.

training set yesterday was something like this (omg, im turning into squid): 1km warm up, 8 by 100 kick with fin, 10 by 50 kick with fin fast, 10 by 100 swim (fast), 10 by 50 torpedo tube with fins.

the moment i saw the 1k warm up, i was like GG. haha. felt quite weak at certain points of the sets. like i had no more energy and i had to stop. haha. im not making excuses on why im so slow or anything. i just felt really exhausted. geez.

well at least i managed to pull through. i heard next weeks the time trial for nationals. sigh. shall do my best, though i already have a feeling i know what the results will be. i shall not pin my hopes up to high. haha.

anyways i swear, projects are the bane of my existence. i have a mask to submit on wednesday, cargo to submit on monday and flight ops punctuality on thurs (THANK YOU WEE LI FOR POSTPHONING IT!!). haha.

mummy's birthday

2008-07-31T21:23:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :)

today was my mums and squid's mums birthday. haha. coincidence eh? after school today, we went to have dinner at seafood paradise. it was quite a big meal. haha. had 2 crabs, prawns, fried rice and all that. whew. am super full now. anyways will post pictures taken during dinner.

anyways i think im coming down with a sore throat. sigh. you that feeling when you get when its like super dry and no matter how many times you drink water, it still hurts? yeah. that feeling. ouch. i hate it.

i just want to sleep and not wake up. i suddenly feel childish and just wanna escape from reality. thanks MEI YAN and RACHEL for listening and advising me when i needed it. oh and mei yan my luv, the bunny tooth thing so works. haha, and to SQUID, thanks for listening, helping me, believing in me and loving me. =)

some inner thoughts..

2008-07-29T21:48:00.004+08:00

Your Daily Tarot Card Reading: The Hermit

The Hermit represents the need to distance yourself from the people and events in your life that are causing undue strain on your emotions. There are times in your life when seclusion and isolation are warranted. The Hermit is a card of discovery and enlightenment, which can only develop by spending time alone with your thoughts. Your energy will be depleted quickly in social situations.

wow i wish i could do that. haha. but no time no time! projects, assignments and exams! wahhh! oh and i signed up for stan chart today too! but il be doing the 10k again. haha. figured that i wont have as much time to train for a full 21k. Race ID: 17022-SIN-10W-OLC. alrighty, bring it on vanny! time to beat that old timing of yours. heh heh.

anyways, had a talk with jian yu BEST FWENZ about certain stuff. haha. dude, i totally get what you're saying. it totally sucks to feel that way man. and i must say i agree. i can take criticisms and all, but sometimes it hurts. im not saying that you must sugar coat everything you tell me. lets just put it this way..

i dislike being looked down on and being put down, especially when you tell me that i can't do it without even giving me a chance.

so there. you have just got to know another side of vanny.

a random convo.

2008-07-27T13:04:00.004+08:00

this is why i miss my ceremix so damned much;

-sherry- says:
u know what

-sherry- says:
i just got this crazy idea that 6 of us should do smth like that tog.

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
HAHAHA

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
STAN CHART

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
LETS DO IT

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
IM SERIOUS

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
OR

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
there is a competition coming up

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
SEARCH FOR SINGAPORE'S PUSSYCAT DOLLS

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
HAHAHAHAHA

-sherry- says:
LOL

-sherry- says:
ARE U SERIOUS

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
HAHAHA

vanny: "It's like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you're in love." says:
can you imagine us all like them?

-sherry- says:
they prolly say that u guys are the "cheesyrag dolls" man!

-sherry- says:
lol

Don't cha wish your girlfriends was hot like mine.

HAHAHA. i seriously can't imagine us doing what the cats did in the vid for BUTTONS...

OMG, VISUALS!

am feeling extremely bad..

2008-07-27T10:23:00.004+08:00

SENTOSA TRAINING vs INCOMPLETED PROJECTS/ASSIGNMENTS/MASK.

hmmmmm.

yes that's my dilemma for the whole of yesterday. sigh. and surprise surprise, i chose projects/assignments/mask. but i feel extremely bad. like i havent been to sunday training for ages. and that is totally bad. BUT on the other hand i have yet to start on my other assignments except understanding art and management of air cargo, WHICH IS BAD TOO. sigh. i better make enought time to actually go sentosa next sunday.

aside from that dilemma, i had an interesting morning. bro hauled my arse outta bed to throw out all the pots of plants outside my house. now, whoever who has been to my house would totally understand why i say its HARD LABOUR. i have like a total of 4 small pots and 4 big arse pots. and it sucks cause the moment we lifted them up, mozzies flew EVERYWHERE. omg. i had 3 bites. well at least now the space outside my house is much cleaner. haha.

alrighty, thats all for now, back to work.

to that special someone...

2008-07-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

without a doubt, whenever i am upset or down, the squid monster sure knows how to cheer me up. i should really learn to control my temper and not to throw tantrums (okay, i sound like a kid). but whatever it is, i just wanna say, I LOVE YOU. :D

i know i can be a total bitch sometimes but thanks for putting up with me, and surprising me. *big, cheesy, stupid, idiotic, toothy, wide smile*

anyways i attended the APEC workshop with the others today, skipping all classes (HAH, GOT LOA TO SKIP CDS). it was supposed to be for the top 15 students of the AMS cohort, but i somehow managed to go as i was president of Blackbox. haha. as what mr abbas puts it, "BEING PRESIDENT HAS ITS ADVANTAGES." hahaha. so true. so lucky me, got to go. the food there rocks, and the topics discussed there was okay i guess. abit hard to understand at first, but i had 2 translators sitting next to me (abbas and sumarni). HAHA.

oh and training today was equally gruelling as monday, except that the 5 by 200m sprint with flippers was killer as we had to complete each 200m within 4 minutes. whooo. freaking tired. but then again, as what sam said, no matter how shitty trainings are, its the team that doesnt make things feel so bad. we joke, laugh and even SING. hahaha. =) i love my team.

okay gotta go hit the sack, need to be at orchard hotel at 8.30am. omg. what an ungodly hour.

Vanessa is..

2008-07-20T17:12:00.007+08:00

What Vanessa Means

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.

You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.

Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

SUAVE, SEXY, SMART and STRONG. HAHAHAHA. THEY FORGOT ONE MORE "S" WORD, SHORT! HAHAHA.

oh and HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MY DEAR ONG JAYOON! X)

anyways went to run with squid and his buddy, jave yesterday. am extremely demoralised beyond the point of being demoralised. (huh?) HAHA. but seriously, it was one of the most terrible runs. after so long of not running, this short 3k distance was like a total killer for me. i was struggling. this is BAD. how to run campus relay like that? tsk tsk vann. BUCK UP. but on the bright side, we went into the dog farms to take a look at all the cute little puppies. aww, either the cute little puppies melted my heart, or the blazing sun did. HA.

after that, rushed home to shower and went out with the family to eat at New York, New York and watch THE DARK KNIGHT. i once again take my stand that HEATH LEDGER is such an awesome actor. i swear, he really acted so well, it was hard to believe that the dashing heart throb is actually playing this psychotic killer. haha. its great people, go watch it. =)

so after the movie, i was terribly late so had to make a quick dash to meet leo and squid, then we cabbed down to balmoral plaza's DE CODER'S CAFE for miss ONG JAYOONS birthday! haha. it was tons of fun, we played games and did stupid dares. and i think there must have been something wrong with us yesterday, wei sheng, jor and i kept knocking down our cups filled with drinks, causing a mess. oops. =X haha. i think our muscles too big ah. HAHA.

okay here are the pictures!

a happy happy day!

2008-07-17T21:03:00.004+08:00

Each participant in the Nike+ Human Race 10K will receive:
- A Nike+ Human Race Tee (material: sphere dry-fit)
- A loaned ChampionChip device
- A Nike+ Human Race 10K Tote Bag
- A Nike waterbottle
- 20% off ipod accessories at iStrudio @ Paragon
- 3 day fitness first passes
- Other goodies

Each Nike+ Human Race 10K Finisher will receive a Finisher's Bracelet. The first 200 finishers will each receive a Nike+ Human Race 10K gym sack.

Boys Like Girls will continue to give their everything. Come hear them perform at the Nike+ Human Race 10K Finale Concert!

LIKE OMG!! IM SO GLAD I CHANGED MY MIND AND DECIDED TO JOIN! NOW IM PRAYING I CAN ACTUALLY MAKE IT FOR THE RUN!! HAHAHA. omg so high now. *runs and jumps around, does a split*

Squido Ego Seaweed says:
the stuff i choose very zai one ok..

Squido Ego Seaweed says:
haha

Squido Ego Seaweed says:
u also very zai mah

vanny: "I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rhythm." says:
chubby = zai?

Squido Ego Seaweed says:
zai not nessaraily must skinny mah

vanny: "I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rhythm." says:
but what you mean by ur baby zai?

Squido Ego Seaweed says:
my standards are my secret.. haha.. special only too me.. haha..

Squido Ego Seaweed says:
just know that u are special to me k?

awwwwwwww. :) cue: cheesy, idiotic smile.

Im never gonna dance again..

2008-07-15T20:20:00.005+08:00

"Careless Whisper"

by George Michael

I Feel So Unsure

As i take your hand

And lead you to the dance floor

As the music dies

Something in your eyes

Calls to mind a silver screen

And all its sad goodbyes

[Chorus]

I'm never gonna dance again

Guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend

I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that i've been given

So i'm never gonna dance again

The way i danced with you

Time can never mend

The careless whisper of a good friend

To the heart and mind

Ignorance is kind

There's no comfort in the truth

Pain is all you'll find

[Chorus]

Tonight the music seems so loud

I wish that we could lose this crowd

Maybe it's better this way

We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say

We could have been so good together

We could have lived this dance forever

But now who's gonna dance with me

Please stay

[Chorus]

Now that you've gone

Was what i did so wrong

So wrong that you had to leave me alone

Thanks to mr wong wei sheng who kept singing to this song in class and then sending me the song. haha. now this song is stuck in my head! haha.

this song is super old school lah. in fact, its one of my first few favourite george michael songs. this song talks about loosing a friendship after admitting feelings for her. this song should be the anthem for many who are in the same situation; those afraid of loosing friendship just because of admitting feelings for the other person. SIGH.

OH and i swear, he is one heck of a looker! what a waste he is gay. ah well. haha. you know what they say, the good ones are either TAKEN or GAY. so true. hahaha.

anyways thanks to hoon and col for inspiring me and giving ideas for my mask! haha. and get well soon col. everyone around me is falling sick, when is it my turn? HAHA.

p.s: mum's birthday is coming soon and i have yet to buy her anything. oh and you know what? squid's mum's birthday is on the same day as mums! hahaha. talk about coincidence.

OSIM TRIATHLON 2008!

2008-07-12T23:15:00.012+08:00

RX 020, THE NUMBER FOR MY FIRST EVER TRIATHLON TEAM RELAY!

hahaha i was super excited over today man! though it was just like a 200m mini relay swim, but STILL. the atmosphere there was electric man. i swear. a once in a lifetime experience, i would say. heh heh. it has even spurred me into thinking of actually doing the full thing. (yes i think the atmosphere made me intoxicated too. either that or SHAMELESSLY EYEING HOT GUYS. HAH). and that hoon ah! trick me again. sniff. im starting to think that im getting more and more gullible these days. haha. anyways thanks to sammy and hoony for coming to support! =)

oh and SERIOUSLY. the moment i saw this picture, i have to admit, I DROOLED CAN. omg. vanny wanny. GOOD JOB! *pats self on back* HAHAHA.

check out this video that sammy made, its awesome too! SAMMY! CAN I LIKE HIRE YOU AS A PHOTOGRAPHER FOR EVENTS? I'LL PAY! X)

alrighty anyways, here are some of the MANY pictures we took today. as what mei yan my luv said, we take picture, machiam like we did the entire race. HAHA.

ALRIGHT. thats all for now. this is only from sammy's cam! still have tons more from hoony and jel. heh heh. will post more when i get them. wah now thanks to the rain, i feel feverish and have a blocked nose. hope it goes away by tml. haha. tata people!

assignment blues

2008-07-11T02:42:00.003+08:00

yes, its already 2.42 am, and im still here. we just completed our management of air cargo assignment. whew. that was one tough cookie. the part where we have to argue about which service provider is the best. forming the arguements to make it strong was the hardest part. hope what we did was fine. anyways good job girls! =)

anyways learnt an interesting method of reading your love life from han cheong and the rest of the SME people. haha. okay lah, i know this kinda things aren't accurate and is to cheat people money. but i was pretty intrigued with it. haha. shan't say bout what the cards said about me and the sotong. har har.

oh and tomorrow my folks are leaving for bintan for my dad's family day. SIGH. wish i could go with them. i could do with a beach resort holiday now. but oh wells, im staying cause of the OSIM race on saturday. haha. we are taking part as relay swimmers only. should be fun, though we gotta report at like 7am at east coast. okay tata people, my bed is calling me.

cluttered days, cluttered life?

2008-07-09T20:21:00.004+08:00

the more i think of it, the more i regret not going for training today. :( as it is im already so slooooow. oh well. sigh. gotta put in more effort next time. haha.

well let's see what's left to be done for the next few weeks..

MANAGEMENT OF AIR CARGO ASSIGNMENT(!!)
RESEARCH FOR PAINTING FOR MASK
RESEARCH ON ARTIST FOR DISCUSSION FOR ART
INDIVIDUAL ASSIGNMENT FOR FLIGHT OPS.
MANAGEMENT OF AIR CRAGO PROJECT
AIRPORT ADMIN PROJECT
AIRPORT SYSTEM REPORT
DIRECTOR'S CUP (but this is with SME, so its gonna be cool.)

and the list just goes on.. haha. this is just the basic gist of what's gonna go down for the next few days, including trainings on every monday, wednesday, fridays and maybe, sundays too. hope i can squeeze it all in.

well after talks with different groups of people from the past few days, i feel my opinions and mind set towards certain issues have strengthened even more. put it simply, i know what i have in mind now and will work towards that goal. to whoever who thinks you know what im talking about, CLEVER YOU! haha. keep it on the low down 'kay? :)

oh and last night, i went with squid to see his sister, xue ying, off. she left for australia to study for 3 years. now thats quite a long time, and honestly? i admire her independence. haha. to be honest, i think il be damn scared to go by myself. yeah, im not that independent. i mean im fine with going overseas to study, but for so long and by myself? not really. haha. tsk tsk, vanny needs to grow up. haha. anyways xuee, have a good time there yeah! and take care. :)

alrighty, time for me to get back to air cargo assignment. toodles y'all.

Sources of comfort to me.

2008-07-05T18:08:00.010+08:00

"The Way You Look Tonight"

by Tony Bennett

Some day, when I'm awfully low,

When the world is cold,

I will feel a glow just thinking of you

And the way you look tonight.

Oh but you're lovely, with your smile so warm

And your cheeks so soft,

There is nothing for me but to love you,

And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,

Tearing my fears apart

And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,

Touches my foolish heart.

Yes you're lovely, never, ever change

Keep that breathless charm.

Won't you please arrange it?

'Cause I love you

Just the way you look tonight.

this is one of the first few love songs that ive listened to when i was young. this was from the movie, My Best Friend's wedding. this song is the girl and her best friend's song. the sad part was when she let her best friend and his wife dance to that song during their wedding. My Best Friends wedding is the best show ever. those of you who have never watched it, SHAME ON YOU. haha.

oh and, TSK TSK SQUID, GO TO THE NAUGHTY CORNER AND FACE THE WALL. REFLECT AND REMEMBER IT NEXT TIME. HAHA.

anyways, here are some pictures that are taken from the past few weeks that i have yet to post. these are the people i have been spending most of time with, aside from mr squiddy. =)

hugs are needed.

2008-07-05T00:17:00.005+08:00

vanny wanny is really tired, weary, upset and possibly confused. she is tired of responsibilities, faking smiles, being misunderstood, assignments, pretending everything is alright and being daddy's tough little girl. sometimes, just leaving everything behind seems like a good idea. and don't get her wrong, she may sound like a quitter, but really, she is just tired of everything.

just a little bit of TLC would be great for her right now.

IN A QUIZ MOOD.

2008-06-29T18:33:00.003+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - Free IQ Test

CadaverForSale.com - How much is your cadaver worth?

Am-I-Dumb.com - The Dumb Test

HumanForSale.com - For Sale By Owner

my inspirations and my fears.

2008-06-29T16:14:00.002+08:00

WE PASSED BM! X) the examiner took his own sweet time slowly testing and scaring the hell outta us. we ended our test at 10.30 plus plus.

and and and, for yesterdays NUS life saving competition, get this, temasek polytechnic life saving team won..

MEN'S, WOMEN'S and OVERALL CHAMPION of 2008!

WHOOHOO! the seniors were like THE definition of ownage. seriously. apparently, next year is gonna be our turn. im freaked.

just one of my fantasies..

2008-06-26T20:40:00.005+08:00

check out the song i just added to my blog. its from the korean movie called innocent steps. they played this song when the lead actress danced with the supposedly bad guy in the show in an international dance competition.

IMAGINE: she stepped onto the dance floor, searching in vain for the man who taught her how to dance and the one that she loved, but to no avail. SUDDENLY, they played the song (the one on my blog) that she and the man she loved danced to and when she looked up again, THERE HE WAS SMILING AT HER.

WAAAAAH! i have the SHIVERS whenever i watch that scene. sigh. the koreans are so good at this kinda stuff. SQUID! WHY CANT WE HAVE MORE OF THESE ROMANCE STUFF? sigh.

anyways BM is tomorrow. good luck to all of us! we all worked real hard for this day. lets DO THIS! X)

what a long day

2008-06-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

yeah had a long day. first off, went to sentosa with the girls! haha. totally fun. we met at vivo at 12 to eat then headed to sentosa to just tan, take pictures and talk. caught up on alot of stuff. oh and we tried the jump shot too! X) was a success due to col's EXCELLENT camera skills. pro eh? hahaha.

so after that, hoon and i headed back to school for training. jenny successfully confused us with the heart and lung systems at first. haha it all seemed familiar to me but i just listened cause i kinda forgot.. =X heh heh. so anyways we did timing today and patrick taught and corrected us even more. oh geez. im really feeling fearful now. extremely. i tried to train without wearing contacts today, and screwed up my 3rd item. i couldn't even see tanny underwater. oh dear. thank goodness for goggles. i seriously hope all goes well..

oh and we are supposed to make a decision. as to where when we take the BM test, do we take it as a team (eg, one person fails, means all fail) or do we take it individually.. i think this is one decision that should be given serious thought to. some of us have different opinions bah, after the discussion over dinner. so i guess hopefully we can even it out on monday when we meet.

so here i am now, at 12 midnight, chowing down a bowl of noodles and trying to select cds for the sotong (THE WEBSITE REFUSES TO LET ME SIGN IN.. GRR). but all i can think of now is whether i can make it for BM. i need a boost in confidence. sigh. anyone wanna help with that?

when the days are long, and the nights are cold...

2008-06-19T19:03:00.003+08:00

lets see..
mosiac work is done! yaaaay.
airport admin, halfway through. yipeeee!
airfield starting soon. whooo!
flight ops all done. yaaay!
airport system completed my slides, yessssss!

so, did i back up all of them? YES I DID. HAHAHAHA. take that technology! HAH.

... and and and i feel so silly, to be constantly checking my email, hoping to hear from you or checking my msn contact list, to see if you are online. i must either be too bored or just need want to talk to you so much. geez, more than ever i miss you.. these last 2 days are so long.. =(

TECHNOLOGY HATES ME. GRR

2008-06-19T13:17:00.001+08:00

YES. EVEN MY MUM'S LAPTOP CRASHED TOO.. GRR. WITH ALL MY WORK IN IT! ARGHHH! *bangs head in frustration*

i know i know i should have backed up my work into the portable hard drive and all. sigh. what a depressing day it was yesterday. plus i failed the CPR test. i think i got the worst score lah. i know that it was my first lesson yesterday, but i should have read up more. geez. BM test is next friday. and i heard that they are planning to push it forward like our LS123. oh maaan. what a bad week im having.

the only good thing that happened yesterday was that i finally managed to pass my timings for BM and my laptop is coming back next wednesday. haha. oh and the sotong is coming back on saturday! yay! haha. and of course, the team never fails to cheer me up. with all the random and funny jokes. haha. had a talk with hoon yesterday too. thanks for listening girl. =)

alrighty back to work on this ancient ibm laptop at home. its PENTIUM 3 DUDE. and im backing up all my work this time.. -.-

the feeling i get sometimes..

2008-06-17T19:37:00.003+08:00

"Obsession (No Es Amor)"
by Frankie J and Baby Bash

(Check check ...this happened for real ...baby bash..yo.. frankie j.... obession)

Well it's early in the morning
And my heart is feeling lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But it's driving me so crazy
I don't know if it's right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinking bout your beauty it makes me
weep...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I don't know what to do I think I'm in love
Baby...

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you're not my lady but I'm just tryin to make this right
I don't know what to do
I'm going out of my mind
So baby if you let me could I get you to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you'd understand
Cuz I know he can't love you right, quite like I can
It's 5 o'clock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
weep...
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont know what to do I think I'm in love

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

I love the way you freaky like that
I love the way you freaky like that
I love the way you freaky like that
It's an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I don't care what people scream
You're my blessing when I'm stressing
My superfly beauty queen
I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

[Chorus]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Amor

i can so relate to this song. sigh. don't you sometimes for some mysterious reason just suddenly have this feeling? props to frankie J. he sure portrayed this feeling well in this song.

this is gonna be a long entry.

2008-06-17T10:02:00.011+08:00

okay people. this is gonna be a super long entry, so whoever hates reading long posts, avoid reading this one today. HAHA. okay first off, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MY DEAR RACHEL TAN PEI LING! =)

ALRIGHT! next one, the questionnaire that ralph tagged me to do. haha. so here goes...

RULES OF THE GAME:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

so let's start.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
CASTRATE HIM. i hate cheaters and traitors. end of story.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
start a spa resort by the beach in like bali or phuket or some exotic country. *drools*

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
a nice tiny ceremony by the beach in some exotic country with close friends and family.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
not at all. i can see my laptop right in front of me! HAHA. kidding. i like to take things one day at a time.

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
erm, gentleman-ly, kind hearted and sensitive, can make me laugh and a good listener.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loved by someone.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
as long as it takes i guess.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
let things be, i don't like being that OTHER girl. besides it just means not meant to be lor.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
the busy schedule coming up.

#10.Who makes your day?
my family, friends, shopping, massages, rain (not the singer, MIND YOU) and FOOD. =)

#11. Is being tagged fun?
eh no leh. cheap thrill ah?

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
HOPEFULLY *crosses fingers* working or training to be an ATC.

#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
MY FAMILY. a certain sotong in vietnam now and my closest friends.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
an UNCLE! haha. kidding. nice and funny guy. =)

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married but poor. hey im still a sucker for romance.

#16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
turn off my handphone alarm. the music is so damn loud.

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
hmm. 3/4? haha. i just learned that one shouldn't hope too much in one relationship. so it wont hurt so much when things turn sour.

#18. Money, friends, family, love, hobbies/favourite leisure, arrange them in order of priority of your life.
family, love, friends, money, hobbies/favourite leisure

#19. What type of friends do you like?
those who can bear with my extremely lame and corny jokes. thank you guys. =)

#20. What type of friends do you dislike?
two faced ones.

And its your turn :
okay i closed my eyes and pointed. and the lucky 5 people are... *drum roll*

JIA YUN, KANG WEI, KATHLEEN, YI NING, COL. =)

*********

okay part one down, now left the last part, just a quick update on where i have been, before i get back to work. sigh.

8th: TRAINING AT SENTOSA! =) it was kinda fun but extremely tiring. running on the sand, learning how to do beach events and so on. one thing though.. LUNGES KILLS. oh and i now have an islander card. wahaha. had tons of fun with the team. OH! and it was my dear mei yan's birthday. haha. after that, i went for ms RACHEL TAN PEI LING'S birthday party. it was great to meet up with my ceremix and my other school mates after so long. =) il post pictures when i get my laptop back from repair yeah..

9th to 10th: LIFE SAVING BONDING AND TRAINING CAMP! haha. it was quite fun, getting to get to know my other team mates and "seniors" better. we even tanned under the sun together. haha. now we all have matching black/brown/chao tar tans. =)

11th to 15th: THAILAND TRIP! MASSAGE, SHOPPING, FOOD, MASSAGE, FOOD, SHOPPING, MASSAGE, SHOPPING, FOOD. yeah. i think i pretty much covered what we did there. HAHA. shopping was awesome, food was fantastic, massage was out of this world and spending time with the family was the best. what else can i say? =) oh but my laptop crashed while we were there. sigh. there goes my poor baby.

16th: TRAINING DAY. wanted to train earlier but ended up talking to kenneth see, mei yan and jel at bistro walk and then "chilling" at the pool till 4 plus. haha. oh oh and they updated me on ALOT of stuff. haha. these people sure know how to make me laugh, even if it is for the wrong reasons. HAHA. =)

alrighty, after this long long long post, i shall now get back to work. sigh. i hate assignments. and i miss the sotong as usual. 5 more days left! okay bye bye blogger!

IN BANGKOK!

2008-06-14T23:04:00.001+08:00

HAHA. sorry for the lack of updates, the past few days as i have anticipated was so busy i hardly had time to log into to blogger! haha. well im in thailand now and am going back to singapore tomorrow. had tons of fun and will update on what has gone down for the past few days yeah? =)

by the way, I MANAGED TO BUY THE WHOLE OF THAILAND! or so i think.. =) hahaha. and i miss my sotong already.. sniff 7 more days..

so is it really the holidays?

2008-06-07T23:16:00.008+08:00

yes, TERM TESTS HAVE ENDED! *jumps up and down like some lunatic* oh but wait. there are 8 assignments/projects to be completed in 2 weeks AND i have yet to start. *stops jumping immediately* yeah, thats such a party pooper huh. haha. im actually gonna bring my baby laptop with me when i go thailand next wednesday. oh joy. haha.

anyways, yesterday was filled with fun activities. straight after the management of air cargo paper (i am NOT gonna talk bout it..), i went with the girls (except cheryl cause she had a meeting.. sniff) to LITTLE INDIA! haha. it was like a total cultural experience. we literally saw, experienced and SMELT many different things. =x oh and jyun bought a shawl and i bought a set of HOT PINK bracelets for a dollar! like OMG. so CHEAP! heh heh.

oh something interesting happened at mustafa too. an indian security guard was like FLIRTING with col lah. or at least trying to get friendly? HAHA. he even asked her to wear a sari next time and bring a back pack so he can chat with her again. HE HAS SECURITY RIGHT COL? *wink wink* HAHA.

so after that we headed off to china town to go button shopping! however, we couldn't find the button shop. but instead, we found this shop that has some pretty clothes. wah so tempted to buy stuff there. *CONTROL CONTROL!* haha. anyways after that, hoon and me headed back to school for training. though we were so tired and tried to sleep on the bus, we ended up talking and talking and talking. =)

alrighty anyways here are the pictures!

alrighty, well on a final note, i watched KUNG FU PANDA and INDIANNA JONES with my dad and bro today.. i preferred kung fu panda cause it was funny, cute and just perfect. haha. indianna jones was great at the start and the build up was FANTASTIC. BUT, the ending totally sucked man. i tell you, if i hadnt had a thing for harrison ford, i wouldnt have liked it. sheesh. what a let down. alrighty, off to sleep.. got training tomorrow at sentosa and then, RACHEL'S BIRTHDAY PARTY! X)

a sudden flashback of the old days.

2008-06-03T23:47:00.003+08:00

All I Have To Give

by Back Street Boys

I don't know what he does to make you cry
but I'll be there to make you smile
I don't have a fancy car
to get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart ?

- I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart

Chorus
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give

When you talk, does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say ?
That's ok babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time ?
Baby please, I'm on my knees
praying for the day that you'll be mine

Chorus

Bridge
To you... Hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more

- inside
All the money in the world could never add up to the love
I have inside...
I love you

Bass Break
And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give

Drum Break

Chorus(x3)

and out
But my love is all I have to give
without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give to you

3 words: I HAVE MELTED! *screams and looks dreamy eyed*

2 down, 3 more..

2008-06-03T20:36:00.004+08:00

i wanna bang my head against the wall. why? cause of one subject..

AIRPORT ADMIN! ARGHHH!

wah i hope abbas doesnt pull a fast one tomorrow. this is one of the subjects that is easy to understand, but hard to explain. (or wait, is that just for me? haha)

omg. SAVE ME....

and and and i can't take it anymore.. IM SWIMMING TOMORROW!

i have subcummed to the temptation. MEI YAN, HONG CHERH AND KENNETH! you horrible people tempted me.. hahaha.

anyways today marks the 8th month. yup, like squid loves to say, time sure flies when you're having fun. so agreed. =) and thanks for the green earphones. heh. i just love them. oh and i just realised how geeky we are. HAHA.

boy i missed your kisses, but you are 25 minutes too late..

2008-06-02T22:19:00.004+08:00

25 Minutes
by Michael Learns To Rock

After sometime I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere in find her again
To tell her I love her
And I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her weddingdress
But she's crying while she's saying this

Boy I missed your kisses all the time but
This is twentyfive minutes too late
Though travelled so far
Boy I'm sorry you are
Twentyfive minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing me back to time when we were more than friends
But I still see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her weddingdress
But she's cried while she was saying this

[Chorus]

Out in the streets
Places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
Inside my head still I can hear the words she said

[Chorus]

I can still hear her say..
Wah.. talk bout the ultimate REJECT song man. haha. this song is so sad but nice. oh gosh, im contradicting myself. but i swear, Michael Learns To Rock is like my childhood sweetheart. i literally grew up listening to them. haha. *sigh* such good memories. haha.

okay one down, and four more to go.. sniffle. can't wait for friday to come.

happy 23rd anniversary to my folks!

2008-05-31T22:12:00.007+08:00

yup, today was my folk's 23rd anniversary! haha. and how did they celebrate this great day? they spent a romantic morning servicing the car. HAHA. im serious. then they brought me to funan to repair my poor baby laptop (yes, had problems again. but it was no biggie.). oh but here's the best part. we had a GREAT dinner at some expensive restaurant located near chinatown in a hotel called The Majestic. no suprise that the restaurant is called The Majestic Restaurant right? HAHA.

i thought that the place was done up really well. it had a touch of class and style. i remembered that the moment i stepped in the restaurant, all i could think of was, my mum sure has taste. then when the food came and we tucked in, all i could think of was, YES, MY MUM REALLY HAS TASTE. HAHA. anyways took pictures of it, check it out yeah. =)

What was on the menu:

Salmon Tartare

Shark's fin soup

Foie Gras with Duck and Wasabi coated Prawns

Abalone with Tofu

Marinated lamb with Carrot cake.

Avocado puree sauce with vanilla ice cream

Mango pudding sauce with pomelo and vanilla ice cream

haha, thats alot man. i swear, after the meal, i was so stuffed. i can say BYE BYE to the hard work i put during training yesterday and thurday. sniff. oh wells anyways, the results for the elections are out! congrats to all who made it in, especially those from AMS! 5/6 candidates made it through. thats great results man. haha. well and to mr jel wai ang, HELLO MR PRESIDENT! HAHA! =)

alrighty here are some of the pictures i took after dinner. enjoy! while its back to work for me. SIGH. i hate term tests. can the coming week pass by faster??

dirty linen. dirty comments. dirty thoughts?

2008-05-29T20:35:00.004+08:00

im gonna be a busy bumble bee when the term tests end. why?

7 ASSIGNMENTS AND PROJECTS, LIFE SAVING BM AND TRAINING.. (MY FITNESS!), LIFE SAVING CAMP, A POSSIBLE PARTY AT SQUIDS, RACHEL'S AND CANDY'S BIRTHDAY, FAMILY TRIP TO THAILAND and of course, HANGING OUT WITH THE GIRLS AND MY TEAM UNO! =) yes, its gonna a really jam packed. hope i don't like collapse from exhaustion or something man. haha. oh wells.

anyways alot of things happened lately, and all i can think about now after seeing how things are, is that what if things were handled better? as in for every action that happens, there is a consequence yes? i believe that in every situation, every party is part of the blame. but geez. then again, there is just too much dirty linen being aired in public. stuff that makes peoples blood boil. yes it could be your opinion, and yes, by all means, say it! but just remember who is reading it and what could actually happen. honestly! can't people learn to watch what they say? i guess history has a way of repeating itself doesn't it?

alright, back to revisions, projects and assignments. unlike others, i would prefer not to fail. =)

a cold tuesday.

2008-05-27T20:43:00.003+08:00

a bowl of nice warm cream of chicken soup is just the right stuff for this cold, lonely and hungry night. anyways, term tests are like next week. omg. monday to friday. sniffle. good luck to us all. and yes, its time to mug..

P.S: I FEEL LIKE IM TURNING INTO A PIG. *CRIES*

need motivation..

2008-05-25T19:17:00.003+08:00

i realise that im getting lazier to blog each day. haha. i also realised that i have been sleepy the past few days. i sleep at the first chance i get. oh my. i sleep when during the ride to dim sum breakfast, i sleep after dim sum breakfast, i sleep before facial when mum is having coffee, i sleep during facial, i sleep after lunch on the way home, i sleep when i reach home. whats wrong with me? i suspect that im turning into a pig. or i have been bitten by a sleeping bug. oh and i tried studying management air cargo today. i think only like 40% of what i read is absorbed. oh gees. VANN! wake up! the exams are coming. sniff. i need a 100% FOCUS or a DO WELL FOR AVIATION SUBJECTS pill, PRONTO. geez.

the life of vanny wanny so far..

2008-05-24T19:47:00.003+08:00

okay so i realised i haven't blogged like in a looong time. sorry people. i have been occupied. mostly with school and life saving. heh. life saving is tiring but fun. out of the 5 days, i have been swimming after school for 4 days. but im still slow. SNIFF. its really tiring. patrick came up with a new plan for us to improve our timings for BM. how? for warm up, we have to swim 4 breast style, 4 side stroke, 4 back stroke and 4 free style, all this in under 22 minutes. and before you know it, its almost a month and we are gonna take our life saving 1, 2, 3 on the coming monday. best part is, its on the same day as the management of air cargo quiz. oh joy. wish me luck. loads and loads of it.

well lets see, i have managed to cut my hair on friday. the hair style is what many others would describe as the victoria beckham hair style. i kinda like it cause its SHORT first of all. and easy to maintain. haha. but the downside is i look like (as kenneth puts it) im wearing a HELMET when its wet. haha. well whatever it is, i like it. end of story. =) i also visited the adidas sale on friday with squid. wah i bought like 2 blouses and a bag. omg. squid sure knows how to tempt me. STOP IT SQUID! hahaha.

finally, schools gonna be interesting for the next few days. why? its that time of the year AGAIN where you walk into school and see every wall and canteen stall plastered with pictures of students running for the main comms of the different clubs. hmm i only have one thing to say. vote for the ones you know that will truly deliver. heh. lets just leave it at that. okay back to revision for me. goodbye blogger!

4 tiring days and a FANTASTIC day.

2008-05-17T21:07:00.006+08:00

ALRIGHTY! it feels so great to be using my baby again. *strokes fujitsu laptop* welcome home to momma. HAHA. well im glad to see that all my data is not lost and that i still have all my stuff in tact. yaay!

okay well lets see, the only thing i can remember bout this week is the intiative practice we had for life saving then having a revision on wed and then falling sick the next day. oh but the most memorable was dinner with rachel and vivien! =)

lets see, on friday, rach came over after her CCN to shower at my place. then mum gave us a ride to T3 cause we were gonna pick dad up at 10pm. then we waited for vien to come. wah that girl ah, just cause we eating at T3 means must wear very nice. HAHA! lucky i wore something nicer instead of the engine shirt i wanted to wear. il feel like an ugly duck. haha.

so we headed to popeyes, ate and talked and talked. it feels so good to finally meet up with my girls and just talk and talk and talk. but it was only for a while cause dear vivien had to leave for cell. its great catching up with you girls kk. CANT WAIT TO MEET AGAIN FOR RACHEL'S 18th BIRTHDAY BASH! HAHA! its gonna be the best cause she has the best birthday planners, vivien and YOURS TRULY! HAHAHA. kidding lah. ohmygawd. im sooo thick skin. heh.

2008-05-17T10:46:00.002+08:00

okay, with the request of dear vivien and mr wei bin, i shall update my blog WITH pictures tonight. why? cause i received FANTASTIC news..

MY BABY IS COMING HOME TO ME TODAY! (and im referring to my baby LAPTOP.)

HAHA. so SIT TIGHT PEOPLE! =)

to mommy dearest..

2008-05-11T19:44:00.005+08:00

happy mothers day to all mummys out there!

haha. i had a lovely day with the family. :) it really has been a while since i spent time with my family like this, what with school stuff and my dad travelling at least once every month.

anyways being the incredibly LAME vann, i shall leave you with a joke to LAME-IFY yourself. heh.

So.. Why is ET's eyes so big?

CAUSE HE SAW HIS PHONE BILL. HAHA. :)

my brother owes me a macbook

2008-05-10T20:02:00.004+08:00

this is why i should my laptop under supervision when my bro uses it. haha. the dear boy dropped my fujitsu. sniff. there goes the laptop. one drop was enough to kill it. haiz. oh wells. what to do. so sent it for repair today. hope my baby will get well soon. it will take a week JUST FOR CHECKING whats wrong with it. im feeling so emo now..

oh wells. anyways we bought royce chocolates for mummy for mother's day. heh. 2 boxes too. one is the mild cocoa and the other one is milk chocolate. can you say SINFUL? wahaha. well its not our fault that we spoil her. she deserves it. :)

anyways life saving crash course is almost coming to an end. exams are in 2 weeks time. so fast right? omg. wish me luck..

oh and as promised, here are the photos from the outing last sunday, the duathlon and sam's concert and the walk to singapore flyer. it was definitely one hell of a day. :)

life saving

2008-05-07T23:06:00.005+08:00

when they said crash course, they REALLY MEANT CRASH COURSE.

so far im surviving the entire week crash course training for life saving. it kinda like became a routine where like, i would return home late at night, crash and wake up early the next day for school then go for training at 6 then go home and start the process again.

but, its kinda fun, what with all the new strokes, methods of entering water, saving people that kinda thing. made new friends and all that too. currently, i am learning how to plunge too. =)

i guess i finally found a cca where i truly feel comfy in. yaaay! sam was so right. this crash course definitely means CARB BURNING COURSE. whooo!

P.S: il upload the pictures taken on sunday (duathlon competition, sam's concert and the singapore flyer) during the weekend. im too lazy to even plug in the cable. haha.

what a beautiful day.

2008-05-03T21:58:00.006+08:00

its such a beautiful day today. the sky was sun-shiny and nice, i went sakae-ing with ryan and squid, found out i made it into life saving and went to watch the sun set. haha. oh and today was the first time i went to orchard for such a short period of time. just dropped by far east to pick up some stuff with squid and then we went to meet leo and his dad at shaw house. we took a ride from them and headed to squids place to just laze around. haha. oh and we watched the sunset. its been awhile since we just sat and watched the sunset from the roof. it was really nice. =) well anyways its been 7 months already. time flies eh?

contrasting pictures.

2008-05-01T18:50:00.005+08:00

two very contrasting pictures, but two pictures that i really liked. =) it kinda reminded me that, despite the pressure and last minute problems that cropped up, we still managed to have fun.

you have a friend in me.

2008-05-01T15:06:00.002+08:00

its seriously at times like this that im glad that i have friends like that. really.

i realise that i have been having a moody week AND i just realised how much i miss my ceremix girls to talk to me and cheer me up. (awww..) but still i have hoony, jyun, col and cheryl here for me. haha. and mr SQUIDY too.

oh and THANKS LEONARD GERARD ANG POH KIM! talking today really helped me clear my mind. i just realised how stupid i was. haha. sissy, you have a listening ear here if you want to talk okay? =)

the longest daaaaay..

2008-04-30T23:34:00.002+08:00

what a day. started at 8 in the morning. YAWN. hauled my ass off the bed at 6.30 am and rushed to school. reached just in time. then had straight 2 hours lectures. non stop. then had apel, a meeting with some of the main coms and the lecturers from 1 til like 4? haha yeah. me and isk made a quick get-away to go for our cds. THEN i had 2 hours of art. met sam and jel at mush after art and we went for life saving trial.

trial was fine. but i kinda got intimidated by the swimmers. i mean, they swim real fast man. its like there were these 2 girls i met, they used to swim competitively. its like they swam 50m within 41 seconds! like OMG. i only managed 51 seconds. har. the fatty prevails. HAHA. well i hope i can make it in the group. please let me receive that email or message. PLEASEEEEE! oh my gawd. i sound so desperate. haha. =X

What if i REALIZED too late?

2008-04-28T21:46:00.005+08:00

"Realize"

Take time to realize,

That your warmth is.

Crashing down on in.

Take time to realize,

That I am on your side

Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And will never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder if

We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize

Oh-oh

I'm on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

Take time to realize

This all can pass you by..

Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,

No its never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder if

We missed out on each other but.

It's not always the same

No it's never the same

If you don't feel it to.

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way.

It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

Just realized what I just realized

Missed out on each other now

Realize

this song is dedicated to those out there who have yet to realize. HAHA. okay lame. but really though. i think this song lyrics has meaning. read deep people. DEEP! haha.

something happened today. someone said something and up til now, it still hurts. it was quite a curt way of saying it and it really cut deep. i would be lying if i said it didn't make me shed a few tears. oh wells. what i need now is just a hug. a big one. anybody?

ITS OVER.

2008-04-27T11:55:00.005+08:00

after many weeks of preparation, a few days of STRESS, alot of shouting (to be heard), scrambling and changing of plans, the AMS FO camp has ended just like that. and im glad to say that though things didn't go as smoothly as possible with a few glitches, at least it worked out fine in the end. and i learnt quite a few things.

A SPECIAL THANKS TO ALL WHO CAME DOWN TO HELP!
can't thank you guys enough for the hard work and for taking the time off to come and help us. thankyouthankyouthankyou! =)

oh and not forgetting the freshies. hope you guys had fun and at least got to know each other from the different classes. haha.

well lets see i took only a few pictures with my handphone before it ran out off batt. most of the other junk is with YA and jel (GUYS! SEND ME THEM PICTURES ASAP!). haha. most of the volunteers and the main comm stayed over on thursday night for preparation. we played games and did photo soot for night walk til 11 plus, had prata til like midnight and then showered around 1am. slept only at 5 am. consequently for the second night, after all the packing and cleaning up, i slept at around 4 am? haha. was just joking with ryan that i really DID turn into a panda and he will have a panda for a sister. oh wells. it was all worth it.

so here are some pictures for the camp, will show more when i get them.

alrighty, off to research on an art piece. hope i get to swim train today. i wanna get into life saving! MR SQUID, PLEASE WAKE UP!

2008-04-23T22:14:00.004+08:00

i initially had alot of things to blog about today. but the sudden change in mood caused all the motivation of making this a happy post just left me. LIKE THAT. i dunno what the hell is wrong with me.

DAMN I HATE THESE MOOD SWINGS.

blame it all on PMS then. anyways will be gone for camp again from tomorrow til saturday. AMS FO camp this time. this should cheer me up. I HOPE.

a tuesday post about sunday.

2008-04-22T23:03:00.003+08:00

i just realised that i havent posted an entry about the WE WILL ROCK YOU play i went to watch on sunday with squid, his mum and xuee.

well basically its a play about what happens to the world without REAL ROCK AND ROLL music in the future. and where rocking out and having an electirc guitar is illegal. haha. this play featured alot of songs from QUEEN, an awesome british band. hits like "We Will Rock You", "Bohemian Rapsody", "Bicycle" and so on were performed. seriously, i give it 2 thumbs up. the acting was great with the exception of the thick Brit accents. it was abit hard to understand at times. haha.

oh but the MAIN HIGHLIGHT for me was MIG AYESA! my oh my oh my! the 2nd runner up of Rockstar INXS is STILL capable of making my heart melt with those oh-so-blue eyes. SIGH. poor squid. had to put up with my sighs and squeals when he sings or makes a joke. HAHA. can so picture it right? mig ayesa's voice is still so beautiful to me. SIGH. *starry eyed*

first day of school.. YAWN.

2008-04-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

first day of school. yes. had 3 lectures today. haha. it was great to see all my friends again and blah blah blah. well i admit, we were abit rowdy today during the lectures. but cannot be helped mah. haha.

anyways after school, went out with the montfort boys, hoon and jon. went to tm to walk walk and see see. then we had a tiny snack before leaving. leo had prata, jon and wei shayng had baked rice, hoon had some pancake thingy, darren had old chang kee (UNHEALTHY! HAHA) and i had a BIG-ASS scoop of rocky roads ice cream. YUMMY! haha. snacking with the boys is baaad. they eat alot and TEMPT you to join them.

anyways my second attempt to get the folks to buy me a macbook has been FOILED again. picture this: ME, armed with two macbook leaflets and a WIDE grin on my face. upon seeing my dad, before i could say anything, he was like, "NICE TRY, BUT TRY HARDER NEXT TIME." damn it. haha. why didn't he like play along even more? hahaha. oh wells. nevermind, i shall PRESEVERE.

"i wanna be there at the finishing line waiting for you.."

deep sexy voice.

2008-04-19T15:02:00.006+08:00

im BAAAACK!

was away these past few days for the engineering freshman orientation. was a mentor to the freshies of an AMS class together with jyun. 01 OEI! haha. had a great time during the orientation. got to know more of the freshies and do the MASS DANCE, which is always so fun. so technically, being a mentor, we had to stay over for 3 nights. it was fun. we climbed over the fences to get into the swimming pool area to bathe, walked around engine school to find a place to sleep, played mind games on the last night and had prata at 2am in the morning. haha. all this with the girls; jyun, col, hoon, wing, yi ning, irene and princess. =)

oh and had girls talk with hoon, col and jyun too. pity cheryl wasnt there. anyways the girls talk really helped clear some thoughts for me, with all the problems that occured at hand and that are anticipated to happen. haha. yes let just say aside from the fun from all orientation, there were some glitches here and there. lets just leave it that yes? haha.

engine didn't win anything again this year. but oh well, im sure we put up a good fight. especially during the olympiad in which we were second place. anyways the objective was to bond everyone together right! haha. ohmygawd i sound so teacher-ly. ugh.

anyways received some great news from squid on the second day. we have no school on FRIDAYS. shiok right? haha. but i end at 7pm on wednesday. and im the only one taking undertsanding the art. BOO. oh wells. well im gonna be busy next week, with the AMS camps coming up soon. whoohoo!

oh and you know what? the sore throat im having now is not caused by the screaming and shouting during camp but the pasta i had the night before. WARNING! DO NOT EAT GRILLED CHICKEN GARLIC PASTA FROM TCC.

You are the light that made my darkness disappear

2008-04-14T19:20:00.005+08:00

"When You Look Me In The Eyes"

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

like i said, if a guy sings this song to me, it is a 100% guarantee that il be SWEPT off my feet. oh my. i just realised that whoever wants to sing songs to me has a whole song list to choose from. man, he is spoilt for choice! HAHA.

had a day out with the boyfriend yesterday. my dear squido had a chance of being the toy boy yesterday. HAHA. X) as for today, its fine. went for rehearsal with aaron and then lunched with squid and xuee. aside from that, the day has been a slight disappointment. oh well. not everything goes your way right? haha. ~~(note to self: stop expecting too much.)~~

so anyways il be going for camp from tomorrow til friday. yes MISS ME PEOPLE! haha. its gonna be a long one. hope this camp would be better. at least we get to meet the freshies! =)