went shopping with vivien and athein yesterday. it would have been fun if she (as in not vivien) didnt throw a tantrum at the end of it. but then again it was partially my fault. but it isnt my fault that she threw such a childish tantrum. i mean im sorry for what ive done but those means words didnt have to be said right? oh well. anyways i bought brown kappa flats and a white top from zara. totally loved them. i needed the shoes for school. time flies eh? school reopens tomorrow. so sian.

then again, im so thankful school is reopening so that i wont get into anymore fights with her. i cant stand it any longer. i feel like im walking on egg shells whenever im at home. seriously, for 13 years she has confused me, humiliated me and gave me an unpleasant time when im mostly with her. no doubt there are many times shes good to me and looked out for me. this is seriously a love/hate relationship. frankly, i clearly have no idea now whether i should be grateful for all that she has done for me and love her as a sister OR just HATE her for all the pain and bullying she put me through. can't we just make these last few weeks peaceful before you leave? geez..

3 down, 2 more days to go..